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Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #34

March 28, 2000

1. Opening Words - Alexander Aldarow
2. Ten Layers of Reality - Glok
3. Never Give Up Your Dream - Lady Isis
4. Message from Ian Waters - Ian Waters
5. Achieving World Peace - Doug Lewis
6. Today's Mail - Carey Lane Sullins
7. Inner Awareness - Lady Isis
8. The Last War: Chapter Ten - The Latecomer - Brent
9. Closing Words

Opening Words    (view on a separate page)
Author: Alexander Aldarow    (all articles by this author)

Greetings, and welcome to yet another excellent digest of Project X Newsletter. Today I will not say much in the Opening Words, I'm saving it to the next edition, which will be mostly dedicated to the Planetary Alignment of the upcoming May the Fifth and its possible consequences - if you have to share an insight or an information about it, e-mail me.
I just wanted to let you know that last couple of months weren't my best, I've created obstacles for myself and tripped right over them. But as we speak, that is already irrelevant, other things appeared, thrusting aside the old news. I had a series of dreams two nights ago, of such cosmic depth, that... Perhaps I will share it with you next time.

I was disappointed by the The New Age Poetry Contest, though. Despite prolonging it for over three months, I've received merely 20 votes (out of over 1200 readers), big part of them are from personal friends of mine. Unsurprisingly enough, I myself won the contest (4 votes), but it is a sad victory, since I, and so all the other nominated poets, anticipated a head-to-head exciting competition.
Now, some of you will see this as an irony somewhat, but Tiamat was the one who convinced me to carry on with this competition for two more weeks. When I finally did a random drawing of a winner today, among the 20 voters - want to guess whose name came up? Correct, hers. So, Tia, I owe your our special prize. And with that, I give a sad closure to my overhyped Contest.

I also have something additional to share. A letter has arrived to me, from Tony Gosser:

"I want to reach out to others who can help me to grow with the gift that I have been given after I was visited by a golden Light.
I feel alone and do not trust other people that much, as there are so many people out there who pretend to know and understand, but have no clue.
To the point as I know you gotta be a very busy person - I was visited by or suddenly became aware of some great wonderful and good power in a flash one night. I now see symbols, signs, energy, colored lights, and can sometimes guess cards or written messages. I have the oddest dreams, and visit odd places in my dreams. I feel nature as being alive. I can not be around too many people at once, or I become overwhelmed with emotions.
Can you help me to understand these events? I need to understand as the struggle to is very draining on the energy I have left!
Please feel free to contact me via E-mail at
Thank you for any help you can give."

I would like to ask you all to visit Tony's page at our Project Y site:, click on "Sections", then scroll down and click on "Tony Gosser". If any of you can relate to Tony's most wonderful experiences, both him and I will be endlessly thankful for it. In the next issue of the Newsletter I will publish another amazing event from Tony.
And now, to the 34th issue itself, our special feature is "Ten Layers of Reality" by Glok. We also have a touching story in "Today's Mail", as well as a surprising appearance in "The Last War".

Ten Layers of Reality    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Glok    (all articles by this author)

Hello, friends, I am fairly new to Project X and I have an amazing story to tell. But first I must tell of the world I have come to see and what is involved in its reality.

Anything you CAN think is REAL by the very fact that you can think it. How else could you think it? This means that everything you have ever perceived, EVEN IN DREAMS AND VISIONS, is real and composes part of your past. This forms the basis for what follows.

The 10 layers of reality (as I see them)

(1) Heaven (Universal Infinity)
(2) Cosmic
(3) Transcendent
(4) Spiritual
(5) Mental
(6) Astral (the realm we dream and 'astral-travel' in)
(7) Physical
(8) Magickal
(9) Temporo-physical (the realm that forms the basis for our existence)
(10) Hell (Universal Infinity)

As you can see, I have described both heaven and hell as universal infinities. There is a reason for this. That is that the further I have traveled either way, the more like the opposite realm that it has seemed. There is another reason too, however. Simply put, (I will explain more in future articles) I have seen, experienced, felt myself die numerous times, and every time, I have passed either up or down through infinity and come back to near where I started. This leads me to believe that the Universe is, in fact, Circular.
I will provide as much information as I can about the Temporo-physical realm as I can without specific questions.
Is is a smooth continuum of consciousness.
It contains all basis for anything that can be.
It is purgatory.
As you travel through the temporo-physical realm you realize that everything is connected through time and space and you realize that the universe really is One. If you are in the temporo-physical realm you will feel that you are working very hard and not getting anywhere (you actually are getting somewhere but since it is so close to hell, it feels fruitless. Believe me, you are getting things done and are making a great impact on the future).
In the temporo-physical realm, it seems as if everything you see is more than real, it is colorful and rich and thick.

The full impact of this is that the thing you do in dreams are as important and as real as the things you do while awake. They have just as much impact on your future and the future of others. And, especially since they are in a different realm, there are things that you MUST do in you dreams to affect your reality that you cannot do while awake.

I often engage in great battles in my dream realms, that is, in fact, where I do most of my work nowadays. So the next time you engage in an archetypal battle in a dream, remember that it is REAL. If you can effect a positive outcome, it will affect your waking life, and the lives of others.

Everything you do is important and matters.

Never Give Up Your Dream    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Lady Isis    (all articles by this author)

Everyone has a dream - a dream of how you would like things to be. A dream of finding love, of winning the lottery, of becoming someone of importance, of traveling and seeing the world. There are as many different dreams as there are people.
Whatever you can dream you can realize. Never give up on your dream for it comes from somewhere deep inside yourself and it can come true.
If you can dream it, think it, envision it in anyway - you can create it in your reality. You just have to hold on to it - give it energy. For you create your past, your present and your future.
You can look at your journey through life as if you are on ship, and you are the Captain of that ship and a small voice inside is the navigator who plots your course. You have set sail on an adventurous journey, sailing the unending Ominiverse. You stop at many different ports... one being Earth.
Life is an adventure you know. Envision if you can that you have pulled into the port of a beautiful blue island paradise known as earth. A place of indescribable beauty. Where there is always sunshine and you can feel the warmth of unconditional love surrounding you.
If while on this journey you should hit rough seas - no need to worry, for during the darkest of nights and the roughest of seas - within there is a Lighthouse shining forth to guide your way. Just look inside yourself.

Message from Ian Waters    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Ian Waters    (all articles by this author)

I've been checking out your website for a while now. I have managed to read through a lot of the newsletters this evening; very cool. Anyway, this is my experience.

I was attending an university on the East Coast (US). I was lonely, had no direction, and was not making anything of my schooling. But what became of my short lived stay at the university has changed my life all around. I prayed every night for direction, signs to tell me what to do. Then one night, while playing my guitar, I had this amazing vision. Playing music to people, expressing my views in song for people to hear, and use in their own life. It all became clear to me. A guy that stayed across the hall, and who is now one of my dearest friends, and bandmates, has the same dream. We believe we have been chosen to use our music to help the world go through these ongoing changes. We have only just begun are journey, and have a long way to go. However, there are no more hills on my road. I can see clearly my destination. I have started my website at
Anyway, if you find this at all interesting, post it on your site.

Here's another thing:
About astral projection.
I became interested in OBE and astral projection when I was about 13 or so, I'm 21 now. I have had two complete projections, and a couple of sleep paralysis experiences. I would like to know if anyone would help explaining my first one.

OK, I was reading stuff about astral travel on the Internet and decided to lie down at about 7 PM. As soon as I lied down, I could feel the paralysis, then I attempted to separate, and I did. I saw my dog that lives with my dad, and a dog I owned in Arizona that disappeared one day. I look around a bit, and decide to go outside. While in the driveway I notice a being approaching me from the street. She just slides across the ground towards me. I am startled and fall to my butt. Then she comforts me and we have a discussion sitting cross-legged in my driveway. I understand she gave me some important advice, but I don't remember what she said. Then I was back in my body. It's not over, though.
I managed to separate again. I hear the doorbell ring, and answer it. Two teenagers, a male and female are there, very frantic, wanting to use my phone. From what I remember, there seemed to be a car theft and the thief was shot, and they wanted to call the police. The male was being rude, so I let the female use the phone. ?????
Anyway, the third and final part, I think this may have been more of a lucid dream. I was in a room watching people acting out some scene of a skit or something. There was a girl next to me, and I said to her I knew one of the guys acting. Then I noticed she was very very familiar to me. I asked her, have I met you, she said, "No, not yet, but you will," and she gave me a word.
From what I heard the best spelling would be "grenfeld".
The first thing I thought it was was a location or a city. But I did a bit of research and found nothing.

Well, I'm done. I know it's a bit lengthy; please, just get some feedback for the last part, that is the most important part I am trying to figure out. OK, thank you, peace and love.

Achieving World Peace    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Doug Lewis    (all articles by this author)

Reference: "Brain Wave Diary" (Timeline 02/20/2000)

Achieving World Peace - Dedicated to my friend Annette

Before we explore the achievement of world peace we need to define what it is we mean by peace. When I was young my mother would often yell, "Give me some peace and quiet - PLEASE". The source of her exasperation was always the rambunctious behaviour of her children. The peace she sought through her impassioned plea was for the tranquility of silence - or at least controlled and muffled exuberance in her presence.

What she sought was the elusive state of calm, serenity and harmony - PEACE.

Elevating our topic of "peace" to a worldly level may not be all that different, however the relief we look for on the worldly scale is more to do with avoiding bloodshed, maiming, starvation, poisoning and other aberrations against each other. In short, the elimination of conflict between humans, mercy for other life forms and good governance of the environment. The antonym for peace is uproar. Often we are led to think war is the antonym for peace.

A reasonable definition for world "peace" is for us all to enjoyably cohabit the planet. This definition seems so simple and easy to achieve, why is it so difficult to accomplish?

This definition for peace presupposes we all have a common desire for it, the elusive state of calm, serenity and harmony my mother so wanted to achieve at home. Surely well centered and grounded folk share this desire for peace. Examining the primary cause of uproar at home and throughout the world we can easily see the root cause is selfishness, a reluctance to share. Reluctance of sharing, be it our toys as children, love or common resources as adults is surely the fundamental engine of uproar.

Sharing then is the engine for peace.

Throughout history and all around us we easily see that selfishness is a self-defeating strategy. Selfishness leads to accumulating more than we need. Having more than we need leads to the burden of maintaining an impossible surplus.

Empires and personal excessive wealth is impossible to maintain and ultimately a great penalty is paid for taking to amass.

How many empires and dynasty's can you think of that have vanished into thin air - impossible to sustain? How many ultra rich individuals can you think of that ultimately lead and completed fulfilling lives unencumbered by their responsibilities of excessive surplus? "Not many," I will hazard to guess.

Bill behind the Gates?

"Give" and "take" are both four letter words, they both mean, "transfer something to someone". However, one little word leads to peace the other to war. Sharing is the pathway to peace. Sharing quells the incessant din of war. Sharing of mind, body, soul and sustenance trounces uproar. Sharing is pure love. Sharing is PEACE.

If a body has enough, there is enough for everybody. Teach and live the gift of sharing - accomplish peace.

Yes, it is simple like all truths are.

Love Light and Laughter for your journey,

Respectfully submitted by Doug Lewis (a.k.a. WaveWarrior)
A World the way a World should be.

Today's Mail    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Carey Lane Sullins    (all articles by this author)

No music, maybe a graphic of an eagle without a head, or angel of light. Color?

I'm wondering if anyone has or knows of someone who has lights in their eyes. I got mine in '78 when I was first learning to meditate. They are about the size of a straight pin head, at first I had one in each eye. During a Unity retreat they doubled so now I have two in each eye.

Not long after I first got them I ran across a lady who could bring her lights into the center of her eyes and show them to other people. I was stunned she had some control of them and didn't think to talk to her about them for a few minutes and by then had lost track of her.


Glad to run across the Old Ones story, I'll get back to read it later... I just wanted to say a couple things about... Nephilim... 'Nephil' means 'giant' <<< No kidding... I saw a giant angel of light a few years after I first got ill, perhaps in 87... It was about 3 AM, the moon was full and overhead... (by the way, pray for me I'm tired of this illness)..

I saw it glide from the north horizon to the south horizon, with the best view being when it was right overhead between me and the moon. I figure it was about 5 football fields long with a wingspan of about 7 football fields. I'm sure I was thinking about the whole stadium not just the marked 100 yards.

If you drew a eagle with tiny points of light you would pretty much have it, only I couldn't make out if it had a head, maybe it was holding it up, but I suppose if it had one I could have noticed as the moon helped light it up. I could see the moon through it, but I was mainly noticing how detailed it was... able to make out the fine hairs and veins of its feathers.

Thinking I'm about the size of a small ant or flea next to this thing, I finally knew what the word AWE means. IN AWE...

As far as the fallen giant ones. You know those really big rocks stacked up in the desert like some giant kid had been using them for building blocks... Well, one time about 1980 I had an urge to take a picture of nothing. Later I noticed what looked like a triangular UFO cloaking on the picture.

I had it blown up, (bad image on 110 film) and started showing it around. Most I showed it to could see the UFO and would draw a picture of it that looked the same. One lady didn't see a UFO but a hat on a giant man. It took me a few more days to see the man after getting her to outline it a few times for me.

A ghost of a giant wearing a hat that looks like a triangular UFO with portholes around the brim. I wonder if he made his hat look that way on purpose. :)

...Pray for my healing and prosperity.

In 84 I as many have done, took on the illness of the Mother Earth = Environmental Illness: Multiple Chemical Sensitivity. It's been quite a ride and I'm really tired of it, but I guess it's better than the worse scenario of earth changes that we were in store for. Hey, at least I don't get knocked out a for a few days before an earthquake like I did for years.

Used to be when I woke up from a particular kind of deep log sleep I would look to see where the earthquake had been. Maybe it's not as hard on me these days with more people sharing in this illness. I don't think anyone will really understand what we have done to the Earth without taking on her symptoms. Perhaps it won't be long before everyone is sharing in them though.

I haven't had an income for 15 years, but have finally applied for Social Security Disability... actually I'd rather go through a flipping of the poles than to have to deal with them. Speaking of that, I had a dream last night I saw a bright red star. Perhaps it's about time to pack for the wilderness.

Eh, the illness has taught me a lot and given me a lot of insight. Plus I seem to always be able to do the spiritual things I'm inspired to do. I have accepted it to the point of no longer wishing I could go back in time and do things different to avoid it. Maybe complete healing is right around the corner. I keep thinking it's time to be getting over it.

I've been waiting on May 5th for a long time and have come to a point of thinking I'm ready for the Earth (who does have a Soul) to shake off its pesky fleas, rearrange herself and do whatever she needs to in order to detox.


Well, I've seen and experienced a lot of things, but I've got to save some for the book I've been planing on writing my whole life. I think the book will mainly be about what conclusions I come to through my experiences. Sylvia Browne says it will help a lot of people, and that people like a rocky story.

Maybe just pray I get to work on my book. I got a tape recorder figuring that I might finally get it done that way. I've got a feeling doing the book will be healing for me, physically and financially.


Don't look for me to get to involved, I lose a year about every 2 weeks, it seems. Ya know how some weeks seem to whiz by and you wonder where the time went... well that kind of thing happens with me, but it's 7 years at a time that flew by. Kind of bugged me when the first 7 years went by, 'cause I was thinking, OK, in this time all the cells in my body have been rejuvenated.

Then I was thinking if I hold the Christ mind in consciousness all the time for the next 7 years, I'm sure each cell would be born in light... I'll be a light body, etc....
But in the twinkle of an eye another 7 years was gone. Eh, enough rambling.

You Are Blessed "REMEMBER"

Test your love, try moving your mind into a wild bird in a tree and thinking how good it would feel to be petted by the human (your body)... For Real...

Inner Awareness    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Lady Isis    (all articles by this author)

"To foster inner awareness, introspection and reasoning is more efficient than meditation and prayer."

"Right from the moment of our birth, we are under the care and kindness of our parents. And then later on in our life when we are oppressed by sickness and become old, we are again dependent on the kindness of others. Since at the beginning and end of our lives, we are so dependent on others' kindness, how can it be that in the middle we neglect kindness toward others?"

"In the case of one individual or person like myself, the practice of compassion and religion coincides. But another individual without religion can practice spirituality without being religious. So, a secular person can be spiritual. Compassion is compulsory for everyone to practice."

"Kindness is the key to peace and harmony in family life."

"True compassion is not just an emotional response, but a firm commitment founded on reason. Therefore, a truly compassionate attitude towards others does not change, even if they behave negatively."

"Through universal altruism, you develop a feeling of responsibility for others; the wish to help them to actively overcome their problems."

The Dalai Lama

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The Circle Of Light

The Last War: Chapter Ten - The Latecomer    (view on a separate page) (more articles about literature)
Author: Brent    (all articles by this author)

{This episode is written by the Fifth One.}

Chapter Ten - The Latecomer

Awake. Dreams from the night leave remnants of thoughts and processes in my mind. I probe to remember... They feel significant... I must scribe them... perhaps in the past I left them in disregard, but now I do not wish for anything to go amiss... seems too important now... alertness... I never write them down for records... Why? I know not... Just no, I do not.

Morning... awake and dosing in and out of consciousness... head is clear from rest and revival... yet thoughts pass through at this time of day like no other. Answers roll and roll without having even asked the questions yet. So often this feels like the most important part of the day. I do much learning now... at least in part.

The journey continues. I am late for this meeting but somehow it seems appropriate? The bell has chimed, and I am have arrived. Arrival imminent. It must be time... in fact... reconsider... I am right on time... the music plays... the game is in progress.

I sit alone... contemplating all that has gone before and all that will be... in awe... I stare. Into a past that has been and look into the future. Predictions... patterns... visions. I wonder... I ponder of all the things... so often with more than just prediction... a "knowing." I marvel in the spectacle of apparent life as it unfold and presents itself to me. How incredible it all is! How perfect!

Understanding, unfolding. It begins to come together... was never separate? Not really. But as the guise of complexity unravels things are simple. Yet in the networks of their arrangements one finds them hard to pick. Raw science? No... not so hard set. Raw modern science as we know it presently would leave one in a constant state of dismissal. Not raw science... and yet... things still are simple, still logical... but not logic as we know it. Perfection... pure.

The stars. Gazing up at the infinity of the universe... galaxies. Other worlds? One can appreciate that even being such a tiny part of something so huge, still has significance. For if one piece was not in place, not any other would function. I sit in recognition. In appreciation... with love for all that exists. How wonderful it all is! The diversity... the beauty. The "innerness" and the apparent "outerness".

Open. Like a book just waiting for me to turn the pages. Sometimes I choose to and sometimes not... I feel I am self-regulating in what I am ready for? Maybe we all are? Sacrifice... and almost necessity to turning each of the divine page of life. But not a sacrifice with "negative" connotations... no, no... a sacrifice for dignity and living in line with spirit.

So as thoughts unfold some get to know me... some do not because it can often threaten their system or maybe they just cannot comprehend where I stand?

Currently I am sit alone... yet... I still feel my circle of spiritual friends growing... it does not matter. Although alone I do not sit in loneliness, but simply aloneness. For just around the corner I feel a tidal wave... still of the fluid variety, but not physical water... I feel a tidal wave of energy... a tidal wave of connections... a tidal wave of love... soon I will not be alone because the world is changing so fast. I will ride this wave for now... in happiness I continue along the path I lay out before me and has been laid out before me... everything is going according to the plan (!)... It sometimes does not seem as such. But it is. Nothing can stop our evolution. I live in hope and love for all that exists. Even if sometimes things are seemingly going against the way things will be.

I will just sit back and enjoy the ride. After all... why fight destiny? Why move against eventual and inevitable love and unity? I stand up... time to surf... ride "this" wave...

By the way... for those of you that don't know me yet. I am Utopian. Or at least this is that which I will be known. I look forward to meeting you. Next time... my story begins...

Welcome to my world...

Closing Words    (view on a separate page)

"Come and see, the soul, before entering this world, descends first to the Heaven, and sees the honour of the spirits of the righteous ones, standing in many lines, and then it goes to Hell, where the evil ones scream in pain, and it does not feel pity for them. And every such thing is a testimony, the evil ones testify the way they are punished for every sin, and the righteous ones testify of the privileges they receive for good deeds; and the same Holy Image stands above it, until the soul leaves for this world."
- "Zohar", The Book Of Splendor

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