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Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #14

May 8, 1999

1. Opening Words - Rinor Zidran
2. Mysteries in the Dune - Rinor Zidran
3. Stargate at Peru - AlunaJoy
4. News in the World of Supernatural: Prehistoric Moon Map Unearthed
5. The Shootings in Colorado - Bill
6. Understanding Suffering - anonymous / author unknown
7. Paranormal on the Web: The Weirdness is Out Here
8. Quote of the day

Opening Words    (view on a separate page)
Author: Rinor Zidran    (all articles by this author)

Dear Friends.
Sometimes we try very hard to find something that is already known. We look everywhere for that item, that thought, that feeling, in the outside world, inside our hearts, while all the time the answer is already known to us, but it is just forgotten and lost in time.
I cannot point on a specific example, I am sure you all understand what I mean. I know it sounds similar to what is written in the article on the Project X site, called "The Return To The Past", but it is a bit different. At times, we look everywhere and take all sorts of actions to find the right answer, while there is no right or wrong.
As for myself, I sat this week at the dune with Aldarow and I talked to him about the path I think I finally find in life, the right one, when we both understood there is no right one, good isn't necessarily right and evil is bad, every person has his/her share of rights and wrongs, everyone has his/her path in life, and it is not the right or wrong one, because there is no such thing, there is merely the path he/she has chosen.
What I am saying to you, all around the world, don't try so much finding something that is widely accepted as 'right', stop putting so much energy in your quest for right, just look around and embrace the way you have chosen by yourself, life will look a lot better this way.
Stay aware, wherever you are... and good luck.

Rinor Zidran

P.S.: We are currently looking for constant contributors of articles for the newsletter, in order to take a big step further and make it weekly. Also, there are two great new sections in Project , by Ty Narada, Cyonic Nemeton's editor, and by Keiran Dromgool - Armageddon Report. However, the pace at which the Library is getting filled is less than satisfying, and we need your help. Visit Diary Y (, and open there your own personal Section.

P.P.S.: This newsletter has a mysterious watcher. He wishes to add that these first two weeks of May are fateful, it is when the future is fixated for you, and for the world, especially pay attention to the grand opening on May 11th and the astronomical phenomenon, known as "Sun Cruisers".

Mysteries in the Dune    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Rinor Zidran    (all articles by this author)

It all started last week, I had a strange feeling I should go to the dune, relax a little, meditate on the sand, watch the dune's hills, and get my strength back into my body and soul.
It was four-fifteen P.M., the sun was high on the sky, hitting hard on the sand with its warmth and energies. I got to the dune by foot (parked my car somewhere else), and as I laid my feet on the sand I felt the difference, I felt the dune's energies come to me, and I felt as if the dune invites me to explore it, the same feeling that I felt at home and that have brought me there.
I kept walking, I knew where to go, but the feeling was different, because it was afternoon, a feeling of peace and quite, different from the one I have when I come to the dune at morning, a feeling from the past? and it was a positive one.
When I got to the spot at the dune where Aldarow and I always sit and meditate, share our thoughts, something was new. The spot is all sand, and there are trees partially surrounding it, kind of a mixture of desert and forest, which makes it so special. One particular tree, the same one, where we usually sit next to, was different... there was something on it, a bag, a yellow plastic bag stuck high on it, it was close and I felt chill going inside me, the thought of the dune inviting me to go and explore it came to my mind again... and the chill have increased.
I saw two crows on other trees and felt as if they are watching me, as if they protect me.
I started to move toward the tree, when suddenly one crow flew away, and seconds later there were a dozen crows there, they were circling above my head. I froze on my place, afraid that if I will move, they will do something... but not quite sure what.
A minute later they flew away to a tree near the one I was about to climb and get the bag... but the strange thing was that they landed evenly on two trees close to each other... six on every tree.
As I started moving towards the tree where the bag was, they flew in circles above my head again, I moved quick and got to that tree, waited for the situation to calm down.
I climbed the tree (the crows were still there... on other trees nearby), opened the bag and there was a pen and three papers there, one blank, two with words in Russian.
I put it all in my pocket (the yellow bag was hanging on the tree), and left the dune... knowing the feeling, that I had at home and as I walked in the dune, was true.
After I meditated in the dune, I remembered Aldarow had the same bag, but I knew it was not him. I did not know what was written on the papers, I did not know why the pen, Aldarow knew, and we were about to find out...

To Be Continued...

Stargate at Peru    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: AlunaJoy    (all articles by this author)

Article from AlunaJoy's newsletter, HAUK'IN SPECTRUM - April 1999. or

PERU - Stargate, dimensional gate or simply carved rock? This question has arisen in the minds of Peruvian Ufologists recently... I wrote the following brief article a couple of months ago for publishing in the British TruthSeekers Review, and thought that it might arouse the curiosity of some in this newsgroup. I first heard of it while in conversation with a Peruvian UFO researcher. What follows is the compilation of information that was subsequently sent on to me after I spent much time ringing contacts around Lima.

A huge mysterious door-like structure has recently been discovered in the Hayu Marca Mountain region of Southern Peru. Hayu Marca, 35 kilometers from the city of Puno has long been revered by local Indians as the "City of the Gods," and has never been fully explored because of the rugged mountain terrain. Although no actual city has ever been discovered, many of the rock formations of the region resemble buildings and artificial structures. The door, or the "Puerta de Hayu Marca" (Gate of the gods/spirits) has been at some time in the distant past carved out of a natural rock face and in all measures exactly seven meters in height by seven meters in width with a smaller alcove in the center at the base, which measures in at just under two meters in height. Jose Luis Delgado Mamani stumbled across the structure while trekking through the surrounding foothills trying to familiarize himself with the area as his job is as a guide for mountaineering tourists. "When I saw the structure for the first time, I almost passed out..." said Mamani in an interview with the local press. "I have dreamed of such a construction repeatedly over the years, but in the dream the path to the door was paved with pink marble, and with pink marble statues lining either side of the path. In the dream, I also saw that the smaller door was open and there was a brilliant blue light coming from what looked like a shimmering tunnel. I have commented to my family many times about these dreams, and so when I finally gazed upon the doorway, it was like a revelation from God... How do you make order of such a strange occurrence?"

After discovering the door earlier this year, Mamani contacted archeological authorities in Puno, La Paz and Lima, and within a short time the area was besieged with archeologists and Inca historians. It turned out that the native Indians of the region had a legend that spoke of "A gateway to the lands of the gods", and in that legend it was said that in times long past, great heroes had gone to join their gods and passed through the gate for a glorious new life of immortality, and on rare occasions those men returned for a short time with their gods to "inspect all the lands in the kingdom" through the gate. Another legend tells of the time when the Spanish Conquistadors arrived in Peru, and looted gold and precious stones from the Inca tribes -- and one Inca priest of the temple of the seven rays named Aramu Maru fled from his temple with a sacred golden disk known as "The key of the gods of the seven rays," and hid in the mountains of Hayu Marca. He eventually came upon the doorway which was being watched by shaman priests. He showed them the key of the gods and a ritual was performed with the conclusion of a magical occurrence initiated by the golden disk which opened the portal, and according to the legend blue light did emanate from a tunnel inside. The priest Aramu Maru handed the golden disk to the shaman and then passed through the portal "never to be seen again." Archeologists have observed a small hand sized circular depression on the right hand side of the small entranceway, and have theorized that this is where a small disk could be placed and held by the rock.

According to some individuals who have laid their hands on the small door, a feeling of energy flowing has been commented on, as well as strange experiences such as visions of stars, columns of fire and the sounds of unusual rhythmic music. Others have said that they have perceived tunnels on the interior of the structure, though nobody as yet has found a gap that would illustrate the door opening, on the contrary the professional opinion is that there is no actual door, for the frame and the entranceway and the back of the alcove are all carved from the same rock. It is interesting to note that the structure undeniably resembles the gate of the sun at Tiahuanaco and five other archeological sites which link together by imaginary straight lines a cross with the lines crossing each other exactly at the point where the plateau and lake of Titicaca is located. News reports from the region over the last twenty years have indicated sizable UFO activity in all of these areas, especially at Lake Titicaca. Most of the reports describe glowing blue spheres and bright white disk shaped objects. The aforementioned legend concludes with a prophecy that the door of the gods will one day open "many times bigger than it actually is..." and allow the gods to return in their "sun ships...." Sounds familiar to me!

News in the World of Supernatural: Prehistoric Moon Map Unearthed    (view on a separate page)

A map of the moon ten times older than anything known before has been found carved into stone at one of Ireland's most ancient and mysterious Neolithic sites. It has been identified by Dr Philip Stooke of the University of Western Ontario in Canada. What puzzled him greatly was that there was no recorded map of the moon older than about 500 years. Then he found one. It took the eye of an expert to see it for what it was. It was carved into a rock in one of Ireland's most remarkable prehistoric tombs at Knowth, County Meath. ?I was amazed when I saw it. Place the markings over a picture of the full moon and you will see that they line up. It is without doubt a map of the moon, the most ancient one ever found,? said Dr Stooke. ?It's all there in the carving. You can see the overall pattern of the lunar features from features such as Mare Humorun through to Mare Crisium.? Dr Stooke believes that it may have been drawn on the rock with chalk or with colored paint. Before this discovery, the oldest map of the moon was by Leonardo da Vinci, drawn about 1505.
{Source: BBC News}

The Shootings in Colorado    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Bill    (all articles by this author)

The media is overflowing with commentary as to who is to blame for the terrible school shootings in Littleton Colorado. Parents, school, church, movies, Internet, music, etc. Everyone and everything is being mentioned. Yet no one dares to consider the cosmic changes spoken of by those who came before us. Our lives are now under the influence of Uranus and Pluto. Uranus brings on revolution, irrational thoughts, confusion, It does this to make way for a new consciousness. The liberation from the past comes at a price. Uranus spins opposite to the other planets and its magnetic field is chaotic. This age is ruled by Uranus, which in the Greek Bible means Heaven. Pluto is the dark planet. As the earth's vibration speeds up many cannot take the vibrations of Pluto energy. Evils laying deep in the subconscious are brought to the surface. On February 11th 1999, Pluto and Charon crossed Neptune's orbit (the river Styx) and took their place as the doorway to the next world. Pluto made its move 2 months ago. Over the last 80 years or so we have seen war after war, atomic bombs, religious conflict and a breakdown of "traditional values".? The influences of Uranus and Pluto have been written of down through the years, and their time is now. Our civilizations and societies have been turned upside down. Traditional order has been uprooted. Everything has dramatically changed yet people are pointing fingers instead of understanding the cosmic implications of this change. The magnetism has changed human thinking in its evolution towards a new consciousness. The new Aquarium season of the cosmos is taking a deep hold. That is why it is so important that you meditate. One who goes within collapses the wave to a particle and can focus in harmony with this new angle of light. One, who does not, becomes subject to the chaos and confusion of the new disruptive energy. So when people cry out on TV, " what is going on", "how could this happen"? Jesus gave the answer in the Bible. "You can discern the signs of the seasons, but you cannot discern the signs of the times". Pluto and Charon have made their move and the shaking is coming down. Though those outside will not hear it, that is the reason for the drastic change in our social order. That is the reason that the darkness has risen to the surface in individuals and countries alike. As Joseph Campbell pointed out, our myth is Star Wars and Darth Vader is we. But have heart as you look within. The Weatherman is about to tip the pitcher and wash the darkness away.
Bill (from Hidden Meanings)

Understanding Suffering    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: anonymous / author unknown    (all articles by this author)

Suffering seems to be one of those fundamental human experiences that we all have in common, and is perhaps the one we would all gladly give up. We often feel oppressed and frustrated by suffering because we do not understand it. It can pierce the heart of our being and our identity, and shake every assumption we hold about ourselves and the world. It often seems to destroy our will power and overthrow our commitments, to our dismay.
We fear suffering, and react to it with anger and frustration, because we feel oppressed by it and powerless against it. This is another way of saying that we are the victim of our suffering. We take the victim stance when we assert our powerlessness against something, and then project our power onto the "victimizer," which gets blamed for our situation. We then indulge in feelings of self-righteous indignation, "justifiable" anger, and self-pity. The denial of our own power (and its consequent projection) lies at the root of suffering. We will come back to his point.
Let's look at one example of suffering that many of us experience on our path of personal growth and healing: suffering over lost peace.
Spiritual insights seem to come in waves; that is, when we have a flash of spiritual illumination and understanding (or a "peak experience"), it is always followed, after some time, by a return to our previous "normal" state of mind and spiritual understanding. Our insight will often stay with us in the form of an intellectual understanding or belief, but it may take years for it to really become integrated into our everyday being and our way of relating to the world.
For example, many of us have had the powerful experience of realizing that our lives are guided by a higher purpose than our own, and that every event in our lives is a necessary step in the unfolding of our highest path. When we are actually experiencing the truth of this insight in the moment, it gives us great relief and joy, and allows for a peaceful acceptance that lets us calmly abide in whatever situation we find ourselves. In this space we are conscious of the necessity of every thing that has ever happened, and of the nonexistence of "coincidence;" we have great, loving compassion for ourselves and others, and we are in touch with our desire to "play out our part" in life. In this space we do not suffer.
Unfortunately, we usually "come down" from this experience in short order. With luck, its effects will stay with us for a few hours or days, giving us a chance to reexamine our lives and our assumptions in its light. These can be occasions of powerful and effortless growth and healing. But the peaceful experience always eventually fades, and we find ourselves back in our "normal" state of mind.
Days or weeks later, the experience has faded to a memory, a mere idea, and we can hardly even recall its impact. Struggling to remember and recreate that sense of peace and joy, we find instead the familiar, oppressive "reality" of our doubts and fears, beside which peace seems only a fantasy. It is at this point that we start once again to feel powerless; frustration and anger return, as we feel outrage at the universe or God for having "robbed" us of our peace and joy. Then we experience the suffering of being the victim of this undeserved punishment. We may say, "Now that I have seen that I really, truly want only love and peace, why must I go through all of this garbage all over again?"
Inseparable from our suffering is a belief or an interpretation that we have about it, though we may be unconscious of it. In this example, we suffer because of our sense of powerlessness to create what we want (peace and joy), and the interpretation of our suffering is that WE ARE POWERLESS, and a victim to God (or the universe). In order to transform suffering by understanding it, it is necessary to clearly see what meaning or interpretation you have attached to your suffering. This is because your suffering is, in truth, a RESULT of the interpretation, and NOT the other way around. First, you form a belief based on some experience, and THEN you experience suffering, BECAUSE OF that belief.
A BELIEF CAUSES US TO SUFFER SIMPLY BECAUSE IT IS UNTRUE. Restated, suffering results from believing an untruth. Notice, in our example, that we did not start to suffer until we had given up on creating peace, and decided that we were powerless to do so. That is the point where we start believing the untruth of our victimhood, and simultaneously start suffering. All suffering has victimhood-- the belief in powerlessness-- at its root.
So far we have only looked at the CAUSE of suffering, which is a necessary first step in transforming it. What about the purpose of suffering?
If we allow the idea that all suffering is the result of a false belief in powerlessness, then our suffering is the messenger that reveals to us our areas of disempowerment. Whether or not we then take steps to heal these areas is our choice.
Another way to look at suffering is to see it as the universe's way of showing us what we are attached to. Any attachment is also rooted in a belief in an untruth, and is therefore a cause for suffering. For example, we may be suffering because we have no life partner at the moment, and we believe that we are lonely and unhappy because we have no partner. In this case, our attachments are to (1) having a partner, and (2) the BELIEF that we cannot be happy without one. The way out of suffering is to release the attachments and untrue beliefs at its root. The fact that we suffer over our attachment is what tells us with certainty that the underlying belief is, in fact, untrue.
The harder work, by far, is this matter of releasing our attachments and untrue beliefs; this is truly a lifetime's (or many lifetimes') work. In the meantime, we may take some comfort in understanding the purpose of suffering not as some form of cosmic punishment, but rather as our higher guidance faithfully showing us all of the areas where we are mired in attachment and resisting growth.
When you think about the incredible number of attachments we have, it is enlightening to realize that we seldom suffer over more than one at a time. Perhaps this is because our higher self knows that we cannot realistically work with more than one attachment or belief at a time, so there would be no point in our suffering over more than one at a time.
It is also helpful to remember that suffering is not something that is thrust upon us like a punishment by the universe; it is what we ourselves have created by choosing to deny truth and believe in untruth, and it is our incentive to reconsider these false beliefs. When we are in the midst of suffering, realizing this may not give us any peace. We need to be careful not to BLAME ourselves for having created our suffering. This would only be the creation of more suffering through the false belief that we DESERVE to suffer, which is a self-supporting vicious circle.
Identifying the false beliefs that underlie our suffering will bring us closer to healing our disempowerment, but it will not always bring us immediate release. In the meantime, we can fruitfully use the experience of suffering to teach our subconscious that our suffering comes from denial and giving away our power. To do this, when you are suffering, you could use an affirmation like,
"This is what it feels like to give my power away.
This is what denial feels like.
This is what blaming feels like.
This is what attachment feels like.
I choose to release my false beliefs and attachments,
and remember my Truth.
I choose to take back all of my misplaced power,
and remember my role as the creator of all my experiences."
Using an affirmation like this will help us stop projecting the CAUSE of our suffering onto God, the universe, or others. This we must do in order to remember that only WE have the power to stop our suffering. First we must come to terms with being the creator of our experience-- without blaming ourselves or others. Then we can focus on how and why we HAVE created our experience and suffering. This leads to understanding, and allows us to release our attachments and false beliefs, and thereby release ourselves from suffering.

Paranormal on the Web: The Weirdness is Out Here    (view on a separate page)

Today we take a break from the regular recommendations on paranormal websites to bring you... well, even more weirder ones.
1) LSD and strychnine in the phone boots as gangs' initiation ritual? Urban legend. A support petition for deprived women of Afghanistan? Good-intentional chain letter gone astray. A computer virus, cornily dubbed as AIDS, attacking your speakers and keyboard? Hoax. Forward it to your friends, and by the means of attached tracking software Bill Gates and Walt Disney will give you 5,000 $? Another Hoax. Chernobyl, Melissa and Happy99 viruses? Ouch, those are real. Read all the latest Net rumors and hoaxes at:
Current Internet Hoaxes, Urban Legends, and other Digital Lies ( or at:
Urban Legend Combat Kit at (
and see if you fell for one before.
2) Remember the golden age of BBSs, those antique machines of such precious items, like warez, XXX pics and text files. Yes, text files, once our only source of information, before the HTMLs and such took over. For those who missed them, or still seek for bits and bytes of forbidden knowledge, go rummage through hundreds of well categorized files on computers, humor, computers humor, occult, sex, hacking, phreaking and more at TEXTFILES (
3) Let's leave alone our personal webpages for a minute. Have you ever stumbled upon a commercial or information site full with ugly tables, unnecessary clip art from Winword, too dazzling and heavily loaded cheap JAVA effects and rows of ,grammar,. and spelin' mistakes? If you have, then you have discovered another Web Page That Suck. For those who like the suffering in the surfing, or wish to learn a good HTML coding by looking at a bad one, visit Web Pages That Suck ( and prepare yourselves for a good laughter.
4) And finally, for the voyeur types among us, visit the directory of the best live web cams ( As long as there are exhibitionists...

Quote of the day    (view on a separate page)

"We have the power to forget."
- Samuel L. Jackson, "Sphere"

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