Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #62September 23, 2001
1. Opening Words - Responses to The Call - Alexander Aldarow
Opening Words - Responses to The Call (view on a separate page)
My dear friends,
It seems that my opening article from the last issue, "The Call", has
touched something inside of so many. You all have my deepest gratitude
- it seems that months have passed since the newsletter produced such a
wide reaction. With your permission, today I'm freeing the stage to let
The Calls of other people being heard.
My own call, and I recognize it all in your words, is when connecting with what many calls "The other half", our Co-creator, our God-Partner, etc.
This happened to me some years ago and I know for sure we will meet
again as we have met so many times before in previous lives. The difference
this time around is that some of us "old couples" has to develop to unconditional
Love before we are meant to meet. Our meeting is personal BUT also for
a higher purpose of being teachers for others by different work for mankind.
Feeling that are totally NEW and very STRONG.
Who calls us? Nothing more than memories of lives lived before.
WHO CALLS?? It is but one thing, MEMORY.
Calling me to BE me, and you to BE you. To remember... to do our part by BEING and by DOING without giving up energy... to (as Yoda says) "Do or do not do, there is no try." We spend a lot of energy trying, going against our natural rhythm and trying to be what we are not. Maybe? Be the butterfly, the feeling, the song.
Love, Light, and Magic
First off, GREAT topic Alex, this is what we need around here. :)
My 'calling', per se, has been pretty blatant. But I, in my mortal nature, didn't really want to accept it, or perhaps wasn't ready to. I've made a ton of mistakes, none of which I can take back, but in those mistakes I learn, and I grow, hopefully not making them again.
When I realized what it was ... the feelings were beyond joy. We each
have a gift that we receive in every life, sometimes it is a lesson we
learn, other times it is a person we know. It is up to you to embrace that
gift, and do the most with it.
Alex, you said: "So, what is it? What calls me? I have a theory, that it might be my own Soul. Ancient, boundless, connected to the heart of God, it calls my consciousness back, reassuring that we're not limited by the outlines of our brains and bodies, giving hope and faith."
I would say it is indeed your soul, it beckons you to follow that which has been made impossible by that which opposes the good. You can not make it perfect, but you can make it better. It will never leave you, and it will be your guide till death. It will never betray you and it will not confuse you. You are what you wish to be already, and you are untouchable by the forces that would seek to oppose the will of the light. If you can understand what it leads you to, then you are far more that you ever dreamed, for it is the will of life, that which will continue indefinitely.
It calls you.. It is you.. It made you and you made It.
It, your soul, is what makes you, You. There is no way to say what is to be said, and there is no way you can avoid saying it. You are become yourself, and Yourself is become God. There are no questions, only wonderings and wanderings. How can we ask what we are when we are what we are? There are no questions, we simply are. We Are. We Are. You Are. I Am. It is that simple, there is no way to answer questions that have no meaning, questions that were never meant to be asked, questions on the meaning of life. Why must everything have a meaning? What is meaning? Is meaning the basis for existence? NO, it is not. Existence is the basis for existence. We are here, in this time, and we are led, and we lead, and we exist. We are not creatures of death, rather, we are creatures of life. We feel our origins with every breath and we feel our bodies with every breath. There is no meaning in what must be real. It is simply real and we must recognize that our lives are far beyond simple meaning. We ARE and we must continue.
I don't know how to say this. I am become my dreams, my visions, my
delusions, my memories, my thoughts. We all must become all that we are
and we must make our lives to be beyond what can be said, beyond what can
be thought, beyond what can be lived. We are become God. We are not beings
of meaning, we are beings of life.
Maybe not exactly the same, but I have longings, feelings, as if I am
drawn to something unreachable, usually resulting in an unknown sadness.
I feel as if some kind of true calling in which lies happiness attracts
me, I don't know what it is, but it feels almost nostalgic... Longing for
a past live? Longing for places I have once been? I don't know...
Oh yes, this has happened to me many times. Recently it became even more intense. For me it is a feeling of being home-sick.
I get flashes of images connected to that feeling, and those images are intensely beautiful, beyond what I could see with my eyes. And many times I have cried with longing for that place. As you said, it something highly personal. Difficult for me to even talk about.
I had a dream earlier this week, that I think might apply to that feeling
"Unless my love is strong enough
Alex, it was like you were reading my mind. I have never thought how
to express how I feel but it looks like you have already done that. I have
had the same exact feelings as well. A yearning, an anxiety, that something
is calling you but you can't quite hear what it is saying. You feel you
are supposed to be somewhere but do not know where, and not knowing seems
to drive you insane. Sometimes I break down and cry because the feeling
is so strong. It's not like I am sad about it, but the feeling is so powerful
and overwhelming, it consumes all of my senses. I get chills down my spine
and sometimes it makes me feel like I'm floating. I've always looked to
God as well, since I know He holds the answers. But I think that feeling
of anxiety, like you almost have a grasp on our Destiny, the feeling that
keeps me up all night sometimes, is the greatest experience I have ever
had. I know I am here to protect, to help guard something when The Day
comes. I'm still not sure why I have these feelings, but I know my answer
will come soon. I'm starting not to doubt myself so much anymore,
Contact Chronology (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Go to http://www.artbell.com for photos relating to the attached information.
NOVEMBER 16, 1974
FEBRUARY - MARCH, 1975
The stalks of the plants involved in the formation of the circles are
not broken (as would be in the case of a pressured "stomped" depression.)
Rather, the stalks are gently bent at a consistent point along the stem.
The plants continue to grow - frequently at an accelerated rate - following
the formation. Changes in the molecular structures of the affected plants
are seen through examination.
AUGUST 19, 1991
August 14, 2001
August 19, 2001
1.) 3 - 4 feet in height with heads much larger in proportion to their
bodies than humans.
As of today, Sept. 4, 2001, there has been no resolution as to the cause
or purpose of the Chilbolton pictorial glyphs, nor as to the identity of
1. The first-response "crop circles" appeared in about 4 months following the sending of the SETI signal.
2. The patterns woven in the wheat fields in the area surrounding Stone Henge, England have become more and more complex and intricate with the passing of time (in this almost 27 year period) suggesting a gradual evolution in not only their size and patterns, but in their message as well.
3. The "Guardian" tape shows a crop-related phenomenon, but rather than
the bending of plants, it shows plants remaining uneffected by a group
of flare-like fires that form a "crop circle".
4. The reported "ET" shown in conjunction with the Guardian tape is garbed in a breathing apparatus-like facial mask. The form of the facial countenance is very similar to the appearance of the "Chilbolton Face" pictorial glyph.
As of this writing, the afore-mentioned events have correlated.
Viewpoint on the Latest Events (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
I have been asked for my viewpoint on the latest events, this will not be a popular view point for many, but then I did not come here to run in a popularity contest. I came to help mankind and helping doesn't always mean saying what you want to hear. And some of it you have heard before, but here goes . . . I believe we have had another wake-up call. I think we need to think "peace" not war. I think if we do choose to go to war it could very well be the end of humanity. Man has created mass destructive weapons that make the atomic bomb look like child's play.
This is a crucial turning point for mankind. Not just the United States, but the entire World. During this time of enormous changes going on in the ascension of this earth it is going to make a big difference in whether we choose the "old patterns" of you do something to me and I will do some thing to you and it matters not who gets in my way, they too will be destroyed attitude . . . the revenge game, the game of war, played out over and over in the history of this planet . . . or if we choose to only bring those "who are accountable" to justice and "harm none" in the process. In other words not murder thousands or millions of innocent people to catch a few. Humanity is at a turning point in history. We can choose love over hate, forgiveness over revenge, compassion over savagery, the Light over darkness. However we choose will determine our destination.
If you have noticed in the news and emails received from around the world Unity is happening. Nations are joining in our sorrow, pledging their allegiance to the United States. As one man said, "World leaders everywhere giving speeches and interviews with tears in their eyes. Millions of people coming to US Embassies everywhere to pray, leave flowers and show support. Understand that the world is seeing this as more than an American event but as a HUMANITARIAN disaster that must never happen again. The world is joining hands, even hard core Arab countries, in their condemnation of this atrocity against humans and humanity saying it can never happen again, that we MUST do life on Earth differently and that we must find new answers."
Nothing happens without a reason. It is hard to see that and to accept that when you are hurting and when you can't see the big picture. It is like you can't see God, but you know there is a Higher power so you take it on faith. The United States was built around God . . . the pledge allegiance to the flag says, One Nation Under God . . . in God We Trust is on the face of our money. Yet we are allowed no mention of God where it could do the most good with our young . . . they took prayer out of the schools, they even began in recent years refusing to allow Christmas decorations in the schools in some states. Little by little the country built on God was removing God. The only place God was allowed was in the churches and on the money . . . which became a god to many. Now the country is praying, is singing praises to God and country. And as one person asked, "Now will you allow God back in our schools?" Let us pray our leaders also believe . . . "Vengeance is mine, sayeth the Lord."
Last night I heard our president say, "We have heard from the American people. . ." while speaking of war. Have they? If this is truly a country "for the people and by the people" as it says in the Constitution then why isn't a vote taken "by the people" on such matters as whether or not we go to war? Why are we just told? Why is it only those we have put into political office who gets to vote on such things that effects ALL of us? I love this country!!! I also love "humanity." We are all ONE! We must stop killing ourselves. For each time a life is lost elsewhere it hurts us all. There is no separation. There is but one family on this planet . . . the human family. And as sometimes happens in a family there are those that choose to go down the wrong path and cause pain and suffering for themselves as well as for their family. Yes, I want to see those "who are responsible" take responsibility for their actions and they will, if not in this life then after . . . no injustice goes unpunished. No one gets away with anything.
I read a discussion on the net yesterday on the difference between murder and killing . . . they were saying that killing wasn't murder. (Look both words up in the dictionary). They were saying, that killing was a necessary evil. That made me so sad, especially because it was being discussed by those who were discussing the Holy Bible. There is no such thing as a "necessary" evil. Evil/Darkness is just that and you can't sugar coat it. You can however, change it into Light. For the darkness can only remain so long before it is overcome by the light. Evil/darkness feeds on fear, thoughts of revenge, killing, hate, bigotry, racism, war. Any and all emotions, thoughts and actions that does not come from LOVE.
What is terrorism . . . The act of terrorizing; using force or threats to demoralize, intimidate, and subjugate, esp. such use as a political weapon or policy. - - - New Word Dictionary
Think on those words and their meaning and ask yourself isn't that exactly what we as a country intend to do?
Two wrongs never equaled a right and never will. You cannot fight darkness with darkness you must fight it with the Light.
In the service of the ONE,
"War is an instrument entirely inefficient toward redressing wrong; and multiplies, instead of indemnifying losses." --Thomas Jefferson
Additional note from Lady Isis:
Concerning the energy coming from my Healing Hands Of Light on the web...
I took off the email address of all those who sent me testimonials and now I wish I hadn't, as I have was interviewed this past week by one reporter concerning my hand on the web and this morning I was called from London, England and will be interviewed live on the BBC radio tonight. I don't know where this is going, I know Spirit is mapping it all out. So I am asking anyone who sent me a testimony, or anyone who has been to the site and has not sent me one that is willing to allow your email address to be included, please contact me with your information. I don't know if anyone would ever contact you, but it gives more credibility to the testimonials if the contact information is there.
Mysterious (view on a separate page)
Are they UFO's, or are they us? Are these orbs from alien craft, or are they reversed engineered from downed or captured alien craft? Are they some sort of "Spy" probes watching and recording us? What are these mysterious orbs?
There appears to be two separate types of these "Orbs" floating about our environment, one belonging to the "Etherical Realm" QSE, (Quantum States of Existence)... and the "Physical Realm" QSE.
Here is what I've managed to dig up over the WWW thus far...
A UFO, Photographic Phenomena, energy fields, orbs, UFO's ghosts, spirits
About a month or so ago I was in my yard here in southern Virginia taking
pictures of aircraft making chem/contrails. I took several shots, and came
in to download them into my computer. I have a Polaroid PDC640 camera,
and had no problems...
--- Gary Voss
Helping is not always LOVE (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
People like us... on the spiritual path... are always eager to help others.
To most people that sounds as the right thing to do BUT in my reality it can cause more damage than good :(
As an example: My ex-husband have some problems with him being weak
and can't say NO to people. He has his own business and are having some
problems with a person who accuse him of being responsible for things he
isn't... and my ex feels guilty, not because he is, but because he feels
that way. He got an invoice yesterday saying he should pay for things this
guy ordered but thought my ex should pay, as responsible for a machine
which broke down for the other guy.
Near Birth Experiences (NBE) (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Having NBE's is being able to trace back to memories of being inside one's mother's womb, although it doesn't stop there. This usually encompasses memories of being in between lives or even previous lives... though this is where Near Birth Experiences crossover into Past Lives. There have been documented reports of people who remember being in their mother's womb, my oldest brother being one of the undocumented ones.
Seeing as how Scientists don't even see how proving this possibility either way, let alone the ability to prove whether or not some people have actually been able to remember their Past Lives, these are simply theories. Although Scientists can't confirm PL's, it goes without saying that they do give an explanation for why we have particular likes and dislikes (this could be genetic, though somehow I seriously doubt it).
Despite speculations, there are many people all over the world who believe without a doubt that they've recalled past lives and had NBE's. Although I can't ever remember being in my mother's womb, I do recall in between lives and I am certain that I have, indeed, lived many times before; just as the greater majority of the Project X readers have also done.
Cherokee Angel Of Rescue - Part III (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
The Mysterious "Lady In Black".
(continued from Newsletter # 61)
You could say that it was only by chance that I happened to see the
TV columnist's piece in the Indianapolis News that spoke the coming episode
of Sightings in which the story of a local EMT and his encounter with a
strange "apparition" would be featured. I found it to be an interesting
prospect and made a point of watching.
As the years went along, Randy and I became good friends and would frequently have "hunches" about our curious angelic friend. It would be impossible for me to give a chronology of our discovered information regarding the the Lady, so I'm going to list it as best I can.
- Just to the North of the red brick school house sits Indian Creek
Christian Church. The creek in question was named for the fact that an
old Cherokee woman made her home along the creek in the latter part of
the 19th Century.
- The red brick school house served many functions following its construction
in the mid 1800's. It was the site of the first Lutheran high school in
the Indianapolis area.