Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #61September 6, 2001
1. Opening Words - The Call - Alexander Aldarow
Opening Words - The Call (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Have you ever had this happening? Has a sudden, subtle feeling of yearning, longing for something, something concealed by distances of space and depths of time, overcome you before? Like a voice calling to you, from place almost unimaginable, where a path leads, almost unmeasurable?
I have such moments, from time to time. Various factors can trigger it - a flute heard in Enigma albums, a song titled "Edge of Heaven", by Ace of Base, a phrase randomly heard on TV or read in a book, a vista of sun setting into the sea, a sound of feet walking on a sand in a nocturnal desert, a mental image of a dark tower, looming near the horizon. A quest, a journey, an inner touch, a connection stronger that a thousand storms, a whisper softer than a flutter of a butterfly's wing.
This immense feeling is personal, and hard to describe to the others - yet it can sometimes bring tears to one's eye, because it is still very tangible and real. It is like you miss something - but not something you've seen during this life period so far, at least not consciously. Yet this nostalgia, this call, is not painful, and the sadness that it might bring is sweet and soothing, even PROMISING. It is as if, for one moment, you reach through time and space - and this sensation reaches you back, and you understand more, although you can't explain what.
So, what is it? What calls me? I have a theory, that it might be my own Soul. Ancient, boundless, connected to the heart of God, it calls my consciousness back, reassuring that we're not limited by the outlines of our brains and bodies, giving hope and faith.
It calls me home.
By this, I invite all of you to a dialogue. Have you received such a call, and what do you think it means? I do not speak here about our higher callings, about our feelings of responsibility toward the world, in which we are to perform our unique works, for the benefit of the Universe. No, I'm talking about something highly personal. What is it? Who calls me, from places beyond the invisible, from times before my time?
Attunement (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
As Harry Edwards, a gifted 20th century Spiritual Healer, said: "the first gift of the spirit is Healing" - I think we can see where it is the only gift if we interact with one another on this basis.
As the healing gift develops and you become a finer instrument of the spirit to heal the sick, it will be a reward that cannot be measured in material terms.
Attunement is a subtle condition, very difficult to describe in words. It has no physical symptoms by which to recognize it, as attunement is so natural. There should, however, be consciousness of a feeling different from normality, which is often more readily appreciated when returning to normal, full consciousness after emerging from the state of attunement.
Healers are more aware of the attuned condition when engaged in contact healing and a sign of this is the great joy, inwardly felt, when pain has been relieved or an affliction lessened or overcome. It is joy of the spirit self and this could not be experienced unless an attuned condition has been established.
Attunement means establishing a state of affinity with the spirit guides. It is good to seek regularly and purposefully to attain a more perfect state of affinity with spirit. Meditation is the tool used for attunement.
Before engaging in contact healing the healer sits for a few moments to attain affinity with spirit. In spite of other activities that may be going on at the time and the changing of one patient for another, the attuned condition will, with experience, remain with the healer.
Healers possess the high motives of love and compassion for the sick. Healers from spirit also have these two great qualities. Thus it is, through love and compassion from spirit, blending with the same qualities in the healer, that the attunement is achieved.
Such attunement is a natural act. It is almost like dozing but with the consciousness of inner mind awareness. From the healing point of view, we are seeking mental abandonment rather than mental concentration, in the usual sense.
In order to use this effective and powerful method of hands-on healing,
the healer would have good intent: the intent to be a channel for spiritual
healing energy, the intent to be of help, the intent to do only that which
is in the highest interest of all.
TIME TRAVEL: From Now To Then And Back Again (view on a separate page) (more articles about aliens)
Changing The Past By Changing The Present.
Perhaps you saw the series finale of Star Trek Voyager in which "Admiral" Janeway went back in time to meet up with her earlier self, Captain Janeway, in order to alter events, and to change the outcome of Voyager's return to the Alpha Quadrant. In doing so, she saved Seven's life and was able to prevent Tuvok from having to endure the effects of a debilitating neurological disorder. It was a very moving and thought provoking episode.
We each have those incidents in our past that we would change (or at
least want to alter). We all carry some secret regrets of moments that
we wish we could re-do.
(Change the cause / change the effect.)
No one would deny that we are in a flexible time line when it comes
to changing future events. We all re-write future history many times every
day by our moment to moment decisions and actions.
It wound up to be a very involved series of strange encounters, and clues given in such a way as to be understood only in the passing of time. If you would be interested in reading about it, I would be glad to send you a copy of the account as I wrote about it for Dr. Bruce Goldberg.
In (time) capsule form:
I and individuals then unknown to me - who I have since met in this time-line - came back in time (with the help of a more advanced extraterrestrial race) from around the year 2018 to interact with me and others in April and May of 1978.
The exact purpose of this time excursion remains a mystery, aside from the fact that it has been the source of great comfort and hope. It has also caused a profound re-thinking and re-ordering of my concepts of the nature of time, space, and consciousness.
As a result of the lessons learned from that (somewhat unnerving) series of events, the following points appear to be true.
1. Perceived "time" and "space" are aspects of the same dimensional reality.
Space is the solid form of time.
Time is the liquid form of space.
2. All Time and all Space are unified and inseparable.
3. All of Space / Time exists in a globular state, having pure Consciousness
at the center of the "Cosmic Globe".
Thus Space travel. / Thus Time travel.
4. The "past" can be changed as readily as the future.
(Change the effect / change the cause.)
5. What we regard as "memory" is actually our conscious re-connection with an experience in our perceived past. Through the "vehicle of memory", we are able to draw energies from an earlier time (get younger instead of older), as well as to transmit event-altering thoughts into the subconscious of our earlier self.
"Be NOW; be THEN, and back again."
We would have little trouble agreeing with the idea that healing is
a form of changing the past event of sickness. When we alleviate the symptoms
of a disease, we are made to be as if the disease never existed in the
It never happened.
Which suggests that some alternative reality "happened" in its place. - A reality that brings forth a whole creation in our perceived present in place of the un-whole.
(Holy instead of unholy.)
It has been 23 years since I was first forced (by my future self) to
redirect my concepts of our Temporal / Spacial / Conscious reality.
Or at least be assured that there can be a better "past" in your future.
Ego - To Be Or Not To Be (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
From the mail bag came another question of ego, it crops up frequently these days as the quickening seems to quicken and the awakening seems to spread. Often the question concerns an individuals feeling of becoming separated and isolated from the truth of being integral to ONE.
Over the years I have tried to come to grips with the same feelings, this works for me and perhaps it may have slight value for others so I offer it in kindred spirit.
This is how I think of EGO so... here goes, no warranty implied.
Reference: "Brain Wave Diary" (08/22/01)
Ergo, Ego - To be or not to be.
Ego is a mind mechanism providing self-realization. Ego provides the thought that has us recognize self as an individual. Ego allows us to create the illusion that we are separate and apart from all else so we may freely experience self directed choices.
When we are young, ego is not well developed. I suspect we thought of ourselves as a part of something, like a family, rather than as an independent unit. We relied on others so much for everything, I expect it was comforting to feel like part of a group rather than a strong, independent individual.
Later, we may even have thought we were the main one of the group because we had the rest scurrying around doing for us. Our needs were simple, to be clean, well fed and hugged (hopefully). So, as we felt our power, our ego probably developed stronger, giving us feelings of self worth, yet with belonging. And so a little ego is good.
In a pinch, if we found ourselves in a place of misery or abuse, ego is what probably kept us going, kept us hopeful. Belief in self and belief in righteous outcome probably combine to give us amazing resiliency in times of personal need. A fundamental specie survival trait or instinct.
In this way ego is an exceedingly good gift.
Ego is also probably associated with our capability to use another great gift, that of... "free will to choose." Even though being a part of a group is good, it is also good to evaluate what the group is doing and decide whether WE want to be a party to it or not. I expect ego assists us to know and understand "choosing" for self. Self-determination is also a good aspect of ego or recognition of self empowerment... and it is also good. In these ways, ego combined with good conscience, is a very good thing, it supports individual human sentience and caring.
If we care to look and really see around us, it is not too big of a stretch to realize EVERYTHING... every particle of existence is chained together. ALL is a single entity made up of particles of matter and energy. Each particle has absolute purpose. No matter the apparent value or worthlessness of a single particle, each is UNIQUE and has exactly the same relevance as the next.
Arrangements of particles into absolutes, like planets, space dust, trees, me and you can give the impression or perception of individual AND separate chunks. Yet, if we look carefully, we will see dependencies for every chunk and therefore every particle. All is connected within ONE.
To the furthest reaches of space, connecting ribbons and strands or influence are evident. ALL is ONE machine or circuit with many interconnected parts.
Looking with the eye can be deceiving since some of the connecting links are not easily seen because they may be very small like atomic particles, or like air, not "visible" to the naked eye. Light and radio waves pass from stellar body to stellar body and we may not see these beams of light or transmissions as connectors, just as individual twinkles or ether rather than interconnecting force beams.
Either way, all is connected either by direct association, (touching), or by less obvious means such as electro or magnetic fields, flowing streams of plasma, or gravitational influences. These invisible connectors are as tangible as cables chaining all parts of ALL together as ONE.
There are many reasons why we may not choose to associate the symbiotic nature of existence, yet it is all tied together into a single circuit of connectivity.
Ego, if unchecked would have us think in terms of unconnected islands of creation with no real physical connectors, just blobs of massed particles floating or walking unconnected, free floating individualistic parts.
An overdeveloped ego can become overpoweringly strong and if unchecked, manifest the illusion of separation, so strongly, a body may believe it "really" is an individual and that it "really" is separate and unconnected and un-reliant on the rest of ALL.
When this occurs, total belief in self overwhelms all other possibilities.
One by one other belief possibilities are canceled out until only the possibility of self remains. Faith in anything other than self can diminish. So strong can the self-centeredness become, only one belief remains, belief in self. Since for the selfish, all else other than self is separate, then it all becomes but a resource for self. This is often known as selfishness, and is seen in the self centered and selfish as disregard for all others and all things as long as self seems to benefit.
In extreme cases of ego blinded behavior, nothing has importance except satisfying the illusion of self. Like all extremes... instability becomes a risk.
Unchecked ego may have us willingly sacrifice relationships, inner satisfaction, sentient fulfillment, and use of connectivity gifts in favor of things, power and control, things without lasting merit. Things that are not transportable within ONE.
Thinking self is not connected to ONE, is a choice.
Really disconnecting from ONE however, is not achievable. At the end of the day, free choice may get us far more than we ever bargained for.
Ego enabled free choice, use it freely, wisely...
What do you think?
Love Light Laughter Wonder and AWE!
An UFO Experience (view on a separate page) (more articles about aliens)
On March 13,2001 at 6:20 PM, as
I was driving home from work just before dusk and topped a hill facing
west I saw a white something dropping fast from high in the sky in the
west. At first I thought it dropped straight down but after consulting
a map that showed my route veered slightly north I realize the craft did
also. At first it was a shape like a flat bottomed cone (tall popcorn bucket/elongated
thimble, maybe) with larger part at the top. It had very sharp edges visible
and at times while dropping there was an indication of a fold or line the
length of it from top to bottom (as if rotation presented different view
to me). It was very bright white against the palest blue sky. As the highway
I was on turned north, I took a side road to the west heading toward the
still dropping object, in the hope of keeping it in sight and getting a
better look. I wondered where it might land assuming it was very large
space debris, perhaps even from Mir that might be breaking up already.
Cherokee Angel Of Rescue - Part II (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
The Mysterious "Lady In Black".
(continued from Newsletter # 60)
Bob Davidson survived the lightning strike, but was comatose for several weeks. Once revived, his recovery was long and arduous. He reported to have had what he considered to be a visitation with his recently deceased father during the time he was unconscious. Bob had no memory of being struck by lightning or of the mysterious lady who came to his aid. Mr. Davidson made a miraculously full recovery form his very near death experience.
May 20, 1988
I was living on the East side of Indianapolis, in a small basement apartment
near the corner of Linwood and Washington Streets. My building was about
seven miles from the site where the described events surrounding the Lady
in Black took place.
Melvin called me at around 8 PM the following evening (Saturday). He
was sounding much better and even asked if I would want to take him and
his cousin for a ride in the "country". He apologized for having been such
a weight on my shoulders the day before, and hoped that a refreshing ride
away from the city might do all of us a lot of good. It all sounded good
me. I went to his house where he and his cousin were waiting. He asked
if I would mind if he drove. I figured, "Anything to keep him smiling!",
so away we went.
"Yeah?... Thanks.". he acknowledged back to me. And that was all he
could say all the way back to his house.
The ghostly presence (who he said looked right into his eyes) made him
re-think his plans.
(More to follow in the next edition of Project X Newsletter)