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Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #39

June 10, 2000

1. Opening Words - Alexander Aldarow
2. From Sirius I Came - Lady Isis
3. Asylum of The Undead: Part II - - Mark Andrews
4. The Citizens' Nonviolent Human and Civil Rights Organization - Sister Hebe Quicksilver
5. Today's Mail: Choosing to be Chosen - Beverly Harvey
6. Nadia's Letter - Nadia
7. Closing Words

Opening Words    (view on a separate page)
Author: Alexander Aldarow    (all articles by this author)

As another hot June afternoon settles upon our town, I sat behind my computer to write my Opening Words, before I can send the newsletter to you and to the rest of the world. If you have been reading our articles for a while, you have noticed that spirituality, indeed, is our central issue. For me, personally, the utmost important topic is everyone's personal realization that we exist far beyond our 3D realm, that we are free souls in the free Universe, capable of doing whatever we desire - as long as it does not harm other fellow beings. So far a wide variety of spiritual perceptions were openly discussed on the pages of Project X Newsletter, along with descriptions of incredible personal experiences and various methods of achieving extrasensory events. We have brushed along the contradiction between the "New Age" method of free spiritual development and the uptight religious concept of strict rules that will reassure our redemption (the funny thing is that we have never rejected religious opinions, but there were almost no 'and vice versa'). We have also mentioned the unfortunate people who refuse acknowledge their own divinity and, instead of shaping their destiny and living the life to the fullest, they doomed themselves to carrying around their Karmic burden.
There is another type of spirituality I came across recently, and it really upset me. It's, what I coined, a "spiritless spirituality". I'm referring to groups of "mystics", who, despite the awesome knowledge they possess, never bother themselves with responsibility, or fail to see what is the goal they progress toward. Dealing with magic energies, energetic weapons, creating worlds and 'purpose creatures', they still perceive it either as a child's toy that they can boast about, or even threaten others with, or act as if it is a "harsh work", a "factory shop" where they manufacture the likes of themselves. The knowledge and the way they treat it is destructive both to them and to the people who come in contact with them. And if someone dies because of incorrect formula, they just shrug and move on. Talking about a serious contradiction to the Universal law!
Don't take me wrong, those folks are not evil, they are far more progressed beyond 'black and white, good and evil'. It's just... I don't know... What's the use evolving, if your heart is not involved?
Well, I had to get it off my chest. On a much brighter note, let us proceed to the essence of the newsletter, and it's the wonderful articles people are unceasingly (keep 'em coming!) sending to me. Remember the Red Pill article that Sister Hebe published in the previous edition. Well, there was such a tremendous response to her feature, that she opened a Hebe's Family Forum mailing list (, to continue communicating with the people about her views and her organization. In addition, she sent me another profound article, which you have now the chance to read. But first -

From Sirius I Came    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Lady Isis    (all articles by this author)

Long ago it was granted me the privilege and honor to be among those who volunteered to come to Earth to aid mankind during the time of the Ascension of Earth and humanity into the New Millennium, into the Fourth and Fifth Dimensions. Throughout the history of Earth when there was to be a major shift in consciousness, an evolution of humanity, Masters have walked the Earth. Just as every age has had its Christ, every age Masters and Angels have walked among you. As Mother Mary anchors the Divine Feminine energy in the ethereal, I, Isis, and many others, anchor the same in the Earth plane.

The union of Divine energy of the Feminine/Masculine aspect of the Godhead will bring forth an enormous energy force that will change the direction of mass consciousness, and will bring forth upon this plane the "Great Awakening" of mankind spoken of in your holy books.

First let me say, every star, every planet, has multiple parallel dimensions. And the ones you can see with your physical eyes, that to your scientists, seem barren and unable to hold life is not the dimension in which life abounds.

Imagine yourself coming from a world where everything lives in complete peace, love, and harmony. Where pain, sorrow, disease, nor death, nor want, nor imbalance of any kind is existent. Where all lives truly are One. A world of indescribable beauty. There are no words in any language upon the face of the Earth to describe this world, they all fall short. A world where all is Light in a brilliance and in shades of color beyond your imagination. Where you hear beautiful music in complete harmony that comes from the tones put forth by each and every entity's being, as well as the tones from every living thing - music that blends in such beauty even the most talented musician upon this plane could never replicate it. A world where the flowers look as if they are brilliantly colored crystal and give off tones of beauty and fragrance beyond description. A world where if you wish to sit down, you simply think chair and sit down without turning around to see if it is there. If you wish to change the color or design of your home, or your furniture, you simply imagine it and it appears. Where if you want to go to a certain place, no matter how far away it is, you think of the place and before you can say "Shazam," you are there.

In this world all are both male and female and self-procreate, by simply deciding they wish to have a child, the birth of which is pain-free and an event that is celebrated by all. This child then becomes the responsibility of all to nurture, not just the mother/father that bore the child. And education of this child becomes the responsibility of all from birth to what you term teen years. Education is a matter of choice and is seen as a privilege and not something that is forced upon one. This young child can then choose higher education, which is completely different than Earth, where subjects taught are on a Universal basis and takes many years to complete; or they may choose to go into training for some chosen field.

I have barely touched the tip of the iceberg of what you could find there. Take that world and multiply all the wonderful, beautiful, and harmonious things your imagination can think of and you still will not come close to the world I come from; the dimension of Oneness with All That Is! Of Oneness with the Source of All Creation.

To come to Earth I had to come down through the dimensions one at a time, lowering my vibrations with each dimension, with each level of each dimension, until I reached and entered the host body of which I am now inhabiting. If I had not done so I would not have survived to tell the story, let alone complete the mission of which I came to do. Just as each of you must raise your vibrations in order to ascend into the fifth dimension, then to the next and the next and so on.

Upon coming through the fourth-dimension into the third I passed through the veil of forgetfulness, just as each of you have done upon entrance into the earth plane. Also, like you I am having to re-member. On June 14, 1971 I entered into the host body of that was born 9-9-1937, (all you astrologists and numerologists out there, what does this tell you?) Of course in all fairness to you who are astrologists I must tell you once you reach a certain level of development astrology no longer pertains to you, you have overcome the forces.

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Asylum of The Undead: Part II -    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Mark Andrews    (all articles by this author)

[continued from the previous edition]
Ghostly Encounters at Central State Hospital
copyright 2000
A true account by
Mark Andrews (

Part II.
???? "Impossible" is relative

On my second day of orientation, I walked with one of my instructors to the building where I would be working (Bolton Bldg.). There would always be a bevy of patients walking the halls or sitting or lying on the floor.
The pay phones were a popular draw for a lot of them. Frequently, a patient would go through the motions of making a phone call while in reality there would be no call in progress. My eyes locked on one such resident as we walked through the hall that day. Have you ever beheld something or someone so implausible that your rational mind engages in a tug of war with your consciousness? Where you stop, look , turn away; look again - turn away again - look one more time - and then finally surrender your logical resistance to a begrudging acceptance of the sight? This was one of those moments.
There, engaged in a pseudo phone call, was - for all the world! - the carbon- copy spitting-image of General Robert E. Lee. ( although in contemporary clothing ).
My astonishment was obvious to the instructor who asked me what was wrong. I responded, "That looks like Robert E. Lee!" She stopped, looked; gave me a grimaced smile and matter-of-factly observed: "That IS Robert Lee. (pause) Do you know him from the "outside"?"
The man's given name WAS Robert E. Lee. My instructor seemed oblivious to the historical irony. I said, "No, I've never seen him before now." She then gave me one of those
"You're pulling my leg" facial expressions and laughingly inquired, "Then how did you know his name?" I had to come up with SOMETHING fast. "I've seen pictures of him", was the best I could put together. "A friend of your family's", she continued. "No, I've just... seen pictures of him." I shakily came back. "Huh!" , she shook her head - "Well it sure is a small world, isn't it?" We continued on our way; dropping the subject.
I don't know where in your personal belief system you might have a place for reincarnation. But honestly, this didn't appear to be such a case. It was more something approaching time- traveling teleportation! (Or so it seemed.)
Simple "coincidence" falls far short as an explanation for Mr. Lee's full name in alignment with his facial features; down to the appropriately trimmed grey beard.
I never had occasion to speak with Robert. - Not that I would be able to find the right words that could allow me to investigate the phenomenon! As I recall, he died after having been transferred to a local medical hospital. I sometimes wonder if it was "just me", or if Robert (in fact) really DID, objectively, look so much like his historic name-sake. OR - - Was I seeing him through the filter of his karmic past?
With the intense level of psychic strangeness prevalent on the Central State grounds, one explanation is just as valid as another.
You could feel it! There is a persistent electro-static charge to the air. In some spots, the trans-dimensional energies take on the texture of a psychic gel that seems to actually slow you down and to weigh on you as you walk through. With enough experience, you come to unconsciously walk around such pockets.
Another odd reality. - You also find that your psychic abilities are much higher while you are within a given range of the burial mounds. - Aspects that come in handy when having to contend with the sporadic, often unpredictable behaviors of schizophrenics.
This was especially advantageous when it came to working with deaf psychotics. Contrary to the popular notion, Sign Language is not universally consistent, and individual communication skills vary greatly. Some of the deaf patients were well educated and could express their thoughts in Sign and writing with uncommon eloquence. Others were far more "low verbal", which left you second-guessing their signs and the meanings behind them.
It's when dealing with such communication variables that you find yourself subtly shifting your mind into a mode of "emergency telepathy". I came to rely on mind-to-mind as opposed to Sign-to-eye or voice-to-ear.
Through my time as a CSH employee, I carried the titles of psychiatric attendant, interpreter, and QMA ( Qualified Medication Administrator ). You can't help but develop a fondness for the patients. There comes a time when you stop seeing them as patients, and start to acknowledge them as individuals, and often even as friends.
Donald was my friend. He was an unwitting comedian. His actions, words, and facial expressions were priceless; simply hysterical! He had an innocence about him that would always cover his tracks with an unspoken, "Who, me?"
Donald was a resident at Central State long before I arrived. He spent most of his time assigned to wards in the Bolton Bldg. You could always find him somewhere on the grounds; perpetually begging money and cigarettes.- Very common patient behaviors. He had a favorite "roost" in the entrance hall of Bolton. Donald had a "signature" stance involving leaning against the wall ( right across from the elevator ) and always with his right foot placed against the wall.
He never, NEVER, got my name right. To him, my name was always "Joe". I never bothered to try to correct him. He was just too entertaining!
In 1987, my duties were that of night shift QMA for the south end of Bolton. 5 AM was a regularly prescribed medication time for some of the patients. I had to go from our first floor ward to pass some meds on Ward 28, on the second floor. When you work the night shift, the events of the day will most often escape you attention.
I keyed the elevator and saw, in the reflection of the aluminum elevator door, Donald standing behind me; leaning in his regular pose. Just as quickly, I heard him say, "Hey, Joe."
I turned to scold him for being off his ward at such an odd hour but was startled to see no one in the place where he should have been standing. "I'm tired", I rationalized to myself.
When I returned to Ward 22, I jokingly mentioned my "mind's trick playing" to my co-worker. She became very quiet, "You know they moved Donald to the Evans Building last month?"...
...You know, he died last week?"

[More to follow... To be continued in the next issue]

The Citizens' Nonviolent Human and Civil Rights Organization    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Sister Hebe Quicksilver    (all articles by this author)

Whetting the Appetite for Education

To understand the needs of Man, both Male and Female, it is essential to discuss who Man is in the environment, what Man does in the environment, what happens when the natural faculties of Man are impaired or obscured and what it is that leads to the obscuring of those natural faculties.

The law of cause and effect states that every action has an equal and opposite (or corresponding) reaction. This is the physical law that gives Man entrance to the womb of the universe, where matter (elements) and energy intercourse to give birth to the future. It describes how energy moves and reverberates, and it is a compelling reminder to us that we as human beings are made up of energy (we call it spirit) as well as being movers and molders of energy. It whispers to us that we may be much more than we know.

All the earth, animals, plants, water, wind, everything moves and transforms energy. But, though all other beings on the earth are vehicles of energy, we are, not just the vehicles, but also the drivers. Human beings are unique in that, to our knowledge, we are the only creatures in the earth able to be aware of the effect we are causing both within the earth's system and beyond. We are able by act of will to choose how to expend energy and then to evaluate the outcome of those choices. This ability determines the natural work of Man, which is to evaluate what is needed in the environment and then to manifest it.

Since Man exists in community, marriage, home and government are the institutions that focus the energy or spirit of a community upon the fulfillment of both their common and individual needs. These institutions are the womb in which conscious citizens incubate matter and energy into their common, chosen future. The value of preserving these institutions must be understood in every home by every child to be the determining factor in securing our inalienable rights (those rights which cannot be sold, given, or transferred to another) for our future generations.

It is therefore reasonable to say that generation and creation are the natural estate of Man. The human mind is naturally geared by its neurological makeup to administrate these activities in its environment, which is made up of space, energy, elements, and motion. However, human beings are born basically helpless into this environment, with incomplete nervous systems. In order that they may develop the analytical brain function characteristic of humans, they must literally finish growing their nervous system by feeding on the information they collect or that presents itself to them through their environment. From birth to age six, the human capacity to learn is at its peak with virtually the only limit being the skill and commitment of an educator.

But for a child's nervous system to make useful connections and function properly, truth must be presented to their senses. Truth is the solid foundation upon which correct decisions can be made and definite actions can be taken to achieve reliable outcomes. There cannot be a commitment to fulfilling any course of action when the outcome is perceived to be unstable and unreliable. If the decision-making faculties of a child's mind are fed fantasy and not fact from birth, then there is no foundational network of truth for the mind to draw upon. This condition is called miseducation, and it breeds the stagnation and retardation of both individual (psychological) and community (sociological) development.

Fantasy is not a primary product of the human mind. Fantasy is generated when there is something that is a) not known, and b) assumed unknowable. If a child's mind is not calibrated with the orderly rhythms of music, mathematics and science from birth, they have no basis upon which to intuitively administrate order. This means that the child will draw from any arbitrary, random information they have collected and will attempt to create order in their surroundings based upon those assumptions instead of through their creative intuition as it reflects and reinterprets the orderly rhythms of the universe. This results in chaos - albeit through no ill-motive on the child's part. We must principally call all conduct of this nature misconduct, and all information of this nature misinformation, that which propagates ignorance of truth, principle and order.

Every component of misconduct is based on misinformation and fantasy. The mind uses the information it gathers to follow a train of thought to determine a course of action. When faced with an unacceptable outcome of any course of action, it will begin to evaluate the problem or need and intuitively formulate a method to correct and improve. If no applicable truth is stored in the mind, imagination or fantasy will be generated in an attempt to intuit a strategy that fills the gap and corrects the outcome, but this produces an unstable line of reasoning. The mind will proceed to work with this instability but will also continue to generate error. Let it also be noted that without truth, it is impossible to evaluate and correct this error.

It is a law of the physical universe that nature will not tolerate a vacuum, and this applies to that which we see, and also to that which we cannot see, even to thought. So, when a factor is unknown and assumed unknowable, the mind will seek to intuit an answer by imagining what should fill that 'vacuum'. When fantasy continues to produce unreliable outcomes, then the mind begins to do two things. It begins to become superstitious, and it begins to seek ways to sedate itself.

There is a false religion that venerates fantasy. It is called entertainment. Entertainment is what the mind does with its creative powers when there is no groundwork of truth upon which to determine a course of action. Entertainment's obsession with sex and romance is a tribute to its main function, which is to sedate the pain of being incompetent to define, reason, plan, structure, and administrate work through logical thought.

Miseducation reinforces entertainment, and builds a consumer economy around the exploitation of the struggle to survive the pain of misconduct instead of basing an economic system upon the principle of thermodynamics, or upon that which is perpetually generated and sustained by a mind operating on truth.

Miseducation prohibits self-governance, breeding mental slavery. The effect of miseducation is to disable the mind, to convince it that it cannot know anything to be true and therefore cannot solve problems without an external authority. If a person cannot solve problems with their own mind they must begin to look for someone who can solve problems for them and so become dependent upon consuming what someone else generates. This condition creates deficit, debt, extortion, and oppression.

The pathology of addiction follows entertainment, because addiction is, in principle, the compulsive or impulsive muting, sedation, or diverting of the natural flow of physical energy as an alternative to directly defining, reasoning, planning, structuring, and administrating that energy. Another working definition of addiction is the pursuit of pleasure at the expense of freedom. This is exactly what entertainment does. It confuses the mind into imagining that freedom from responsibility is freedom, when in reality the authority to determine ones own course of action is in direct proportion to the degree of responsibility that is shouldered. Freedom from responsibility is the outcome of addiction, not the fruit of liberation.

Entertainment sets up a condition of perpetual violation, because it is generated instead of truth and drives an economy that is threatened by truth. The mind is naturally at work and does not crave to be entertained, but to be educated. However, the mind that is addicted to entertainment loses its taste for generating logical thought and the natural work that flows from it. Miseducation creates a compulsion that will deceive and distort reality. Without the foundational building blocks of truth that are needed to generate and produce out of natural work, the mind perceives entertainment to be a priority and continuing to feed, clothe and protect self and family to be a painful burden.

Gangs are an outgrowth of fantasy's attempt to govern obsessive pursuit of entertainment. Since there is no thought given (because it is too painful) to what it takes to generate what is needed in order to govern the self and the community, the best that can be achieved is damage control. Needs are abandoned. The right to life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness is exchanged for the compulsion to take life if deemed necessary to maintain 1] advantage and 2] the privilege to pursue entertainment without interruption. Gang mentality is actually the toxic by-product of miseducation.

Interpersonal relationships without the benefit of truth become another attempt of fantasy to govern the obsessive pursuit of entertainment. The reproductive organs are recruited as instruments of addictive, destructive, abusive rituals, with parenthood as an afterthought and children only slightly more welcome than diseases. Law enforcement takes on characteristics of gang mentality and government becomes a cold, heartless substitute for parenting and education. There is no aspect of society or the individual that is not violated, no natural impulse not perverted.

The purpose of the Citizens' Nonviolent Human and Civil Rights Organization is to begin to grow new, correct connections in the minds of citizens between the effects of miseducation and the causes of personal and social problems. There has to be a grassroots movement that is dedicated to making tools available that will prepare the hearts and minds of people to accept, then demand, education.

Since the heart is the place where information is weighed and sorted, the heart has to be healed first of the effects of this universal, perpetual violation in order for a person to summon the courage to replace fantasy with truth. The experience of truth and the nature of love is the subject of our courses of study, which are taught by the law, "Forgive us of our violations as we forgive those who have violated us." As abstract law is applied to human interaction, cause and effect begin to lose their mystery and we are reintroduced to them as a plumb line, a tool for consciously weighing, measuring, and planning the future. Motive and intent are studied, and the logical series of truths that must be followed for integrity to be built are identified.

We are seeking to introduce citizens to the high road, to the highest hypothesis of human thought as a basis for "experiments with truth", as Mohandas Gandhi called them. Though not religious in delivery, we seek to harmonize traditional religious vocabularies with objective thought, encouraging families and communities to define and communicate their understanding of universal law in their own familiar languages.

Education, family, and community building is the only acceptable work for citizens at this critical juncture in the history of this great nation. With the effects of over 40 years of moral relativism to study, we have enough historical data on the outcome of that sociological experiment to merit the return to more concrete ethics in our educational systems and our communities. If you are interested in hearing more about the philosophy and goals of the Citizens' Nonviolent Human and Civil Rights Organization please contact me, Sister Hebe Quicksilver, at:

Toward a more perfect union,
Sister Hebe Quicksilver

Today's Mail: Choosing to be Chosen    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Beverly Harvey    (all articles by this author)

Thank you for welcoming me. I really do not feel chosen as it makes me feel like I am special and I do not think I am. But somehow my life has taken a course that is not ordinary and all the times my life has been saved. Like in 1975, when I had just moved to New York with my boyfriend, who was born/raised in N.Y. (we met in Telluride, Co.), we went to the La Guardia airport to pick up a friend of his and on the way he said he thought the airport was off this exit, but he did not take it and we had to turn around. We pulled into the airport. it was Christmas time and crazy. We saw a flash and people running. I got out of the car and ran over to the front of the TWA terminal and saw all these people staring at the building. A terrorist's bomb blew up. 300 feet of plate glass windows hit people. Some were hurt. 11 people died. Later people said to me, "Welcome to N.Y.." That is just one story. We were saved by 2 min. I knew the angels were with us. It seems to be more than that to me now.
I have seen many UFOs, just lights. Now I have a picture of one that showed up in a photo I took before I left Montana. I did not know it was there until recently. I feel they are connected to my childhood somehow. Dreams I remember, yet I can not remember what I dreamed last night. Something has been guiding me. I say it is the light, now.
I have been watching the weekly program "Roswell", it is Hollywoody, but there is something about it that has me fascinated. I like the part where the guy kisses the girl and she is taken to the stars. That is bliss. Do you know Dan Winters site? He talks about bliss. I am searching for bliss, sharing with others. I need support through these times ahead. I do not want to be alone all the time, yet I know it is important to be alone some in order to figure things out on my own. No one has told me. I find things out because I have asked the Universe, then I find books, people, etc.
Beverly Harvey (Flame)

Nadia's Letter    (view on a separate page) (more articles about else)
Author: Nadia    (all articles by this author)

{exactly as sent to Aldarow}

Dear Alexander,
Thank you very much for replying. It is very comforting to know that there are people who do believe in spirituality, and the importance of love. Well, my story is quite long, and I will tell you about the things that I can foresee and the experiences that I have already encountered. I've always had visions - for as long as I could remember. I was brought up in a non-religious surrounding, and my parents were never religious. (My mother is Russian and my father is Jordanian, so I never really knew what my true nationality and religion were). I always felt that there was something missing in me (I was always having visions, sometimes tremendously scary ones), so what happened to me was in order to show me the right path.
I had anorexia since I was around eight years old. My condition was getting worse and worse until it reached an almost fatal stage. I was taken to hospital several times, and got better, but every time I would get a relapse. Last year, I got to a rock-bottom, and the doctors started giving up on me. I got down to 27 kilos (I'm quite tall), and the functions in my body were deteriorating rapidly.
One night family and friends came to the hospital to bid me farewell. I was prepared for death and I was expecting to die any moment. Strangely, but truly, for the first time in my life I was not scared of death. That night I actually saw my whole life, as though it were in a film. Every minute detail of my life from the day of my birth to the day of my death was moving right across my eyes. It was so incredible. I saw myself in past lives. Once I was a model who died of anorexia.
The next day everything changed. I felt I was a completely new person. It was as though I was born once again.
Now I'm completely cured, and I'm looking forward to university. I was accepted to medical school, and my biggest dream is to help whoever needs the help. I hope to incorporate my healing hands with my profession. When I place my hands on someone's head (if they have a headache), it completely cures after a few minutes. I want to learn more about this healing power in order to help others.
I have a lot of other things to talk about, and I hope we will stay in touch, Alexander.
I would like to know more about your experiences, beliefs, etc. Hope to hear from you soon. I am with you all the time, and whatever you want to tell me, I will be glad to listen, or even help - if I could.
All the best, Nadia

Closing Words    (view on a separate page)

"Native Americans beating drums to drive away evil spirits are a scorn to progressed Americans who use their car honks to break the traffics jams."
- (Forgot who said it, sorry)

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