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Project X Newsletter Expanded, issue #32

February 18, 2000

1. Opening Words - Alexander Aldarow
2. The New Age Poetry Contest - Alexander Aldarow
3. The Thing That Eats the Soul... - Rinor Zidran
4. The 2000 International Conference on Science and Consciousness - Barbara Gordon
5. The Year of the Dragon - Mark Andrews
6. The Last War: Chapter Eight - Night
7. The Burning Ground - Stephen
8. Somebody... - anonymous / author unknown
9. Closing Words

Opening Words    (view on a separate page)
Author: Alexander Aldarow    (all articles by this author)

Today's issue is the most unique one, and before I explain why, there is a personal request for each and every one of you. I have started the New Age Poetry Contest weeks ago, in order to make the poets feel good about their creations and also to give you, the readers, an opportunity to win a prize. So far I have received only 13 votes (out of over 1200 subscribers), most of them are from my friends, whom I asked to vote personally. I think this is unfair, both to the poets and to yourselves. So, people, just hit the Reply button and let me know the number of the poem that deserves to be crowned as the best one. The numbers are given below the Opening Words.
I am also aware of the fact that recent editions are somewhat lengthy, but I guarantee you that they worthy of your reading, so take your time scrolling through them.
And now to a more burning issue. First of all, read the following letter I received this week:
"Subject: Project X
Date: Tue, 15 Feb 2000 08:34:44 -0800
From: LaCynda Gibson

From: International Community of Christ
?????????? 643 Ralston Street
?????????? Reno, Nevada? 89503

Dear Mssrs. Aldarow and Zidran:

We have become aware of your use of the name PROJECT X. The name PROJECT X is a registered trademark of the International Community of Christ (US Registration No. 2,138,995 and previous US Registration No. 1,633,136) The purpose of this letter is to demand that you immediately cease infringing upon that trademark and that you desist from doing so again in the future.

In addition to demanding that you cease and desist your infringing activities we require that all copies of materials containing the trademark, distributed to date and inventory, be accounted for. It is within our legal right to demand that all profits realized by the unauthorized use of the name PROJECT X be turned over to us, and we hereby so demand. Any violations of this type entitle us to temporary or permanent injunctive relief in a court of law.

We trust this matter will be resolved without further legal recourse.

We require a response from you within ten(10) days of the date of this communication or this issue of your unauthorized and illegal activities will be turned over to our attorneys.

Gene Savoy, Jr.
Legal Department

cc: Pat Lundvall, ESQ
?????? McDonald, Carano, Wilson, McCune, Bergin, Francovich & Hicks
?????? 241 Ridge Street
?????? P.O. Box 2670
?????? Reno, Nevada? 89505

?????? John A. White, Jr. ESQ.
?????? White Law Chartered
??????? 331 W. First Street
??????? Reno, Nevada? 89503

LaCynda Gibson"
After I overcame the initial shock, as some of you probably did just now, I began to act. First of all, I've responded to the person above, with a rather sarcastic and slightly offensive letter, I must say, stating my arguments. That was not the only step I took - I made this obscure affair a public one. I've forwarded it to 103 of my friends on my address book, asking them to send to the International Community of Christ a couple of lines, stating why OUR Project X is more important to them, placing also my e-mail in CC: line.
The total response was amazing, and I'd like to thank all my friends for their supportive and kind words. This kind of story is familiar to all, the big companies trying to squash the small enterprises; if my memory does not betray me, there was a recent case of vs, eToy being the huge monopoly, while is a much smaller European website, both are selling toys on-line, and although the latter was on-line from much earlier period, demanded to shut them down because of the alleged copyright violation. And now the European kids can't buy their toys, because the American businessmen cannot stand any competition.
I'll refer to the replies I received. There were few that, as a result of the above threat, wished to withdraw from Project X, some told me that I was acting out of anger and fear, some said that those people won't give a damn about my attempt to stir the public opinion. Perhaps, they are right, but I'm not the type that turns the other cheek - I am not as much as reactive as I am pro-active. The majority of the e-mails, nevertheless, were in my favor. Most of the arguments, that were brought before me as well as before the Int. Com. of Christ, were similar to the ones I've originally e-mailed them: I'm in Israel, therefore US / Nevada trademarks are not valid here; my website is a non-profit and a private one; there are dozens of others' pages on the Internet, all titled "Project X", the name is also used in sci-fi and PC games; the Internet itself cannot be censored. Again, I endlessly appreciate the help I received in this hour of test.
In addition, a few among my closest friends, such as Nancy and Original Six, saw this ridiculous matter for what it really is: an attempt to suppress us, to silence our free voices, to shut us down. The same case is the Eckankar movement, taken over by Klemp and his dark agents, who then continued to persecute Sri Darwin Gross, dragging him to the court because of the same trademark rights. In contrary to what is believed this day, it is true, the top of Eckankar movement is controlled by negative psychics. Yes, as Gahvin Nitewalker has posted on our Open Forum, not everything is light and love out there.
Please, don't get me wrong. I am not furious, trying to blame the other side in all the earthly sins, greed, undoubtedly, among them. I also do not claim that the person writing the above e-mail really thought is his mind, "Hey, Aldarow reaches to too many people, his site is too popular, he is the threat to our conspiracy plans, let's destroy this Jedi." However, the same pattern, as seen here, repeats all over the planet on a much larger scale. Under disguise of legal actions and such, free thinkers are being 'demanded to cease', materialism and thirst for power drives titanic companies to capture an absolute monopoly, in every realm, Microsoft on software market, mainstream Christianity in spirituality, and so on. The teachings of Mohammed, Christ and Moses are twisted these days, adjusted to serve the egocentric and extreme desires of the preachers. Mohammed never originally called to terror acts, Christ was always about loving thy brother, not charging money for that, and Moses did not deliver message about reversing the inevitable progress of a country (in this case I'm referring ot the religious 'leaders' of Israel).
Alex, man, some have written to me, why clinging to a name, and they are correct, it is not the name that counts, it is the people standing behind it, you, reader, included, sharing, helping each other, having the time of their life, all by the means of our on-line spiritual/paranormal community. I was suggested to change to Project XX, XYZ, X!, Ecs, Ex, and so on. I thought also of XXX, but that would be a bit misleading, wouldn't it? (See, I can still joke in situations like this). But let me tell you something. It is a title that me, Rinor and Rami have chosen years ago, to name our small group, which has started as an amateur paranormal research team, long before we went on-line and met all the wonderful people like yourselves. The name connects us to all the lessons we were told before, all the obstacles we made our way through, all the experiences we had and cosmic messages we received. Call me sentimental, but it has a value for me, this the the name by which we have became known in the cyberspace and on other planes, it means to us more than to the repulsive lawyers.
So there you have it - a CAUS-like lawsuit of our own. BUT if we all stand tall, the dark ones will never be able to submit us.
Also stay tuned for the next issue as well, were you can find a very interesting article by Doug Lewis and several amazing events that happened to new members of our limitless circle. I will also keep you posted of how this laughable story develops.

The New Age Poetry Contest    (view on a separate page)
Author: Alexander Aldarow    (all articles by this author)

These are the final contenders:

1. Aldarow - "No Traces" - issue # 25
2. Judith - "Angel Sword" - issue # 27
3. Night - "The Chosen / I must go west..." - Night's Project Y Section / issue # 22
4. Rinor Zidran - "I can still dream" - issue # 28
5. Tiamat - "Guardians Of The Temple Of The Flame" - issue # 29
6. Karyn Altman - "Not An Accident" - issue # 29
7. Avigail Tal - "Dear God" - issue # 30
8. Gwen - "Listen" - issue # 30
9. Stephen - "Come Dance With Me" - issue # 30
10. Leigh Mortensen - "Synthesister" - issue # 30
11. Marcia M. Pedersen - "Light" - issue # 30
12. JJJ - "Viewing the world through triangular glasses" - issue # 30

These all are beautiful creations, but you have to choose one and e-mail me its number, so that you will enter our "Spiritual Poetry" sweepstakes. Do not forget to mention your name/nickname. Past issues can be found at our website. An author with the most of votes will receive a prize as well.

The Thing That Eats the Soul...    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Rinor Zidran    (all articles by this author)

Dear friends,
It was a long time since I wrote for the newsletter, I was a bit busy, army was also a factor, maybe the factor, but I decided now would be a good time to share with you some of the experiences I had, with a lesson, off course.

We live our lives the way we choose to, we create for ourselves the path we'll walk for the rest of our life, and it will be our journey until it is complete or until we die. No one has the right to tell us how to live our lives or decide for us, but he can suggest or help, and that's a different issue altogether.
I know a girl, two years younger than I am, which means she's 17, a student at high school... but something eats her soul... something called blindness and anger.
When something we do is not being done right, when we fail, we turn angry, what we don't realize is that this anger is another "being" that lives inside of us, and when we are angry we allow it to come out and do what it wants, and that we feel when we do things, say things while we're angry and hurt people while doing it... only later we stop to think what is it we really did, what really happened here and how sorry we are... but now it's just too late, sure there is forgiveness, but the feeling still remains, the feeling of "why did I allow it to happen." That same girl, blamed everything around for her not succeeding in what she wanted to, and that was school, how she's sick of it and how she's had enough, but the point I'm trying you to see is how unstable she was, and behaved while all this anger came out of her and controlled her, her anger eats her soul.
Another experience is with a driver from the military base I serve, he is mad about his commander, he doesn't want to drive him anymore and in his behavior are total lack of respect to others... and rage, anger... should I say more? Here is the bottom line if you awaited for it: control yourself, your feelings, emotions, be yourself and always, always think before acting, think about the consequences and the price, is it worth it?
I wish you only happiness in life as I discovered that it is an asset we all should have, hold it tight and never ever let it go.

Love, light and happiness to all, all!

"Don't think twice before you listen to your heart."
Enigma - The Screen Behind The Mirror

The 2000 International Conference on Science and Consciousness    (view on a separate page)
Author: Barbara Gordon    (all articles by this author)

I thought you may be interested in one of the conferences we produce, which is a forum for the exploration of consciousness from the scientific, metaphysical and spiritual perspectives. So many people have experiences that are not being explained by the old scientific paradigm, that many of us are called to reconsider our cultural view of reality.
Some speakers:
Jeffrey Mishlove, host and producer of the public television program "Thinking Allowed", holds the only PhD in parapsychology.
Other speakers will be discussing altered states of consciousness, some through entheogens, others through meditation, some through shamanic practice. Also communication with dolphins.
John Hagelin, PhD in physics, is the director of the Institute of Science, Technology and Public Policy, is the Natural Law Party candidate for US president.
Kevin Ryerson, the channel who worked with Shirley McLaine.
Charles Tart, author of "Altered States of Consciousness".
Russell Targ, author of "Miracles of Mind: Exploring Non-local Consciousness & Spiritual Healing".
Dale Pond - sympathetic vibratory physics, built John Keely's free energy device.
Jean Millay, author, "Multidimensional Mind: Remote Viewing in Hyperspace"
- over 40 speakers

Please email if you would like a brochure.

Barbara Gordon
The Message Company
4 Camino Azul
Santa Fe, NM 87505?? USA
Ph: 505-474-0998, 505-474-7604

Producer of
* The 2000 International Conference on Science and Consciousness
Albuquerque, NM
April 28 - May 3, 2000

The Year of the Dragon    (view on a separate page) (more articles about guidance)
Author: Mark Andrews    (all articles by this author)

Happy Chinese New Year
Year of the Dragon
(2-05-00 to 1-23-01)

It's time to send the Hare on his way along his 12 year cosmic journey, and to welcome the dragon! "Dragon" years are said to bring great changes. If you've been keeping up with events regarding UFOs, you know that - for the first time - a federal judge has ruled in favor of UFO advocates, i.e. CAUS ( Citizens Against UFO Secrecy) in their quest to bring the US Government to task pertaining to events over the city of Phoenix [ the firebird ] on 3-13-97.

Ah, how wonderfully synchronistic!

The residents of the constellation Draco - the dragon - are said to be evolved reptilians. Perhaps this will be the year that we are made aware of their presence on earth. Might be a good idea to plan a dinner party for visiting Dracons by having a good stock of preferred Reptoid menu items: Bovine blood, live rodents, etc. Check with your local grocer who will, no doubt, be featuring such on "Dragon Days" picnic fixin's sales.
The Draconians aside, we can have a great year if we allow ourselves to flow with the ascending energies. This would be the year to make those big changes that you've been keeping on hold.
Some of the previous Dragon years were:
2-08-40 to 1-26-41
1-27-52 to 2-13-53
2-13-64 to 2-01-65
1-31-76 to 2-17-77
2-17-88 to 2-05-89
If you were born in one of those years, then YOU are a Dragon. If not, you can still cash in on their good luck vibrations by giving one of them a big kiss.
Have a great year!
Mark Andrews
P.S. "Barney" does NOT qualify.

The Last War: Chapter Eight    (view on a separate page) (more articles about literature)
Author: Night    (all articles by this author)

Chapter Eight - written by night

There I was, on the field of battle. Staring at the enemy. A massive ocean of people that wished to kill me. I stood there with a sword in one hand and a small shield in the other. As I stood there, I wondered why this was happening? Why would they wish me harm? "CHARGE", was shouted from within the ranks of the enemy. A massive wave of humans started running towards me. I then began to run to them. This was to be the battle of my life. This was to be my defining moment. The first members of the horde began to reach me. I blocked the first blow and countered with a slash. He fell to my side. I continued on to the next. They were all falling like dominoes. I was slashing and stabbing at any and all that came near me. Each one that fell two more took his place, and they, too, fell. I was winning. Then the crowd separated. I large powerful man stepped forward. He raised his word as if to strike me from above. I raised my shield and prepared for the blow. Just as I raised my shield his sword dropped. He stabbed right into my chest. I fell to the ground while he pulled his sword from the new hole he had just placed in my body. Everything began to fade to black. The last thing I heard was the cheers of the crowd for the man who had just slain me.
I awoke in a cold sweat. These nightmares were becoming more frequent. This one was different though. I died this time. I had faced an enemy and lost. This is quite a shock when death had not even been a worry to me before this. I sat there in my car just thinking about this dream and my own life to that point. I decided it was time to give my life meaning. More importantly it was time to make this journey worth something. It was time to find out who my father was and to discover more about that part of my heritage.
I headed down the road to find the only part of my father's family that I had ever met. His brother. I had an address, but nothing more. I hoped he still lived there. I hadn't seen him for over eight years. I hoped he would recognize me. I hoped I would recognize him. I just hoped. For the first time in my life I had hope. It was a good feeling.

Next time William continues his new search for his family...

The Burning Ground    (view on a separate page) (more articles about literature)
Author: Stephen    (all articles by this author)

Spirit Quest
Is dedicated to all who feel the magic within their hearts. To all who quest for the spirit of love, in whose presence we derive balance, harmony and joy. In whose presence we move and have are our being. Poetry, inspiration, short stories and more. For those who would desire Spirit Quest in booklet format, please check the information page at


Father, a vision I am in,
Darkness enfolds me and I am all alone.
I am cold, and I am tired.
I feel the weight of lifetimes upon my shoulders.
I feel a thousand years old.

As I search for warmth, I see a firelight,
Somewhere off in the distant night,
This dark night of the soul.

Closer to this fire I am now,
Finally I feel its warmth.
It is the fire of desire,
Fueled by memories of long ago.

It seems that I have been here for ever and
Desperate for warmth, I leap into the flame,
Hearing my heart cry out in pain.

A glimpse of light, a moment of love,
Yet a feeling that I have been here before,
And soon you will close the door.
The fire wanes and again I stand alone.
The fires of life, the desire for love.

On I go, thinking, was this fire as bright as before,
Or the one before, or the one before,
Will this go on forever more?
Fires of hope, of desire, all to be swallowed up
By this dark, dark night of the soul.

Is this part of life's journey, one must take alone?
Is there no one with whom to share the load?
My heart is heavy, my mind is adrift,
I don't seem to have any control.

Yet I have experienced light and I have experienced love,
Far greater than ever before.
Into thy glorious light, beloved One.
But the knowledge I have gained doesn't fuel the flame.
The love that I feel, can it be real?
Each time I step into the fire,
It consumes the breath of life and leaves me in the cold.
Yet there is that fire of which the Masters speak,
The one called "the unfed flame."

The burning ground.
At times the fire lends me strength,
I believe that I can go on.
Then when the firelight dims,
I wonder what I have done wrong.
With each failure something is burnt away,
Something seems to die.
The burning ground.

Each new fire comes with hope,
Will this one be the last?
Will this one be the eternal flame,
The one that never dies?

If not, what will lead me to this light?
I feel, I believe, I know who I am.
Yet I fear opening my heart, searching my mind.
There are many flames of memories waiting there,
Experiences and parts of me that I seldom see,
Waiting to be consumed, on this field of grief and despair.

But I believe there is one flame
That will grant me final release.
The unfed flame of eternal love.

Beloved I Am, take my hand,
Lead me to the light.
Why must I do this alone?
How much of me must die?
And although no one seems to really care,
I know that they are there,
Eagerly waiting to share the joy,
When alone and empty, I step into that final fire,
Free from want and desire.
With nothing left but the light of God.

When there is nothing left, will I love you still?
Love you enough to forgive my journey,
Appreciate what you have done for me?

Once you placed me upon the cross.
Once you gave me new reason to live,
To learn, to grow, to serve.

And now you have set me upon the burning ground.
With an angel that I cannot see,
And only one faint glimmer of hope,
The words of our beloved Francis;

"it is in dying that we are born to eternal life.
Trust me little one."

I would gladly die to be freed,
From the burning ground.

The journey from cross to cross,
A journey of one, a lonely one.
And yet, I AM never alone.

I Am

Somebody...    (view on a separate page)
Author: anonymous / author unknown    (all articles by this author)

Sixty Things That Are Happening Right Now While You Are Reading This Page. Enjoy and Smile :)

1. Somebody is very proud of you.
2. Somebody is thinking of you.
3. Somebody is caring about you.
4. Somebody misses you.
5. Somebody wants to talk to you.
6. Somebody wants to be with you.
7. Somebody hopes you aren't in trouble.
8. Somebody is thankful for the support you have provided.
9. Somebody wants to hold your hand.
10. Somebody hopes everything turns out all right.
11. Somebody wants you to be happy.
12. Somebody wants you to find him/her.
13. Somebody is celebrating your successes.
14. Somebody wants to give you a gift.
15. Somebody thinks that you ARE a gift.
16. Somebody hopes you're not too cold, or too hot.
17. Somebody wants to hug you.
18. Somebody loves you.
19. Somebody admires your strength.
20. Somebody is thinking of you and smiling.
21. Somebody wants to be your shoulder to cry on.
22. Somebody wants to go out with you and have a lot of fun.
23. Somebody thinks the world of you.
24. Somebody wants to protect you.
25. Somebody would do anything for you.
26. Somebody wants to be forgiven.
27. Somebody is grateful for your forgiveness.
28. Somebody wants to laugh with you.
29. Somebody remembers you and wishes that you were there.
30. Somebody is praising God for you.
31. Somebody needs to know that your love is unconditional.
32. Somebody values your advice.
33. Somebody wants to tell you how much they care.
34. Somebody wants to share their dreams with you.
35. Somebody wants to hold you in their arms.
36. Somebody wants YOU to hold them in your arms.
37. Somebody treasures your spirit.
38. Somebody wishes they could STOP time because of you.
39. Somebody praises God for your friendship and love.
40. Somebody can't wait to see you.
41. Somebody loves you for who you are.
42. Somebody loves the way you make them feel.
43. Somebody wants to be with you.
44. Somebody wants you to know they are there for you.
45. Somebody is glad that you're his/her friend.
46. Somebody wants to be your friend.
47. Somebody stayed up all night thinking about you.
48. Somebody is alive because of you.
49. Somebody is wishing that you noticed him/her.
50. Somebody wants to get to know you better.
51. Somebody wants to be near you.
52. Somebody misses your advice/guidance.
53. Somebody has faith in you.
54. Somebody trusts you.
55. Somebody needs your support.
56. Somebody needs you to have faith in them.
57. Somebody will cry when they read this.
58. Somebody needs you to let them be your friend.
59. Somebody hears a song that reminds them of you.
60. Somebody needs you to send them this to them.

Closing Words    (view on a separate page)

"Open your heart and push the limits."
- From Enigma's new, fourth album, the most recommended one, "The Screen Behind the Mirror"

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